my secret pleasure.

2009-10-24T15:10:00.003+08:00

"I self destruct every relationship so that i don't get hurt.
But in truth i just hurt myself worse in the long run"

2009-10-05T19:38:00.005+08:00

I'm on HIATUS.

2009-09-02T20:22:00.002+08:00

"I might be changing a new link due to some personal reason. And i will remove, anyone who doesnt give me their new links, or either didnt put my names under their links. So thank you.

2009-08-29T03:27:00.003+08:00

O my god!
Kim Kardashian is so hot in everywhere! I'm so called in ♥ with her dazzling gorgeous pictures! And when is the first time i started to admire her?

Its all thanks to EEDAH. You know who you are babe! Come out, wherever you are .. Yuhhhu!

Okay stop eh, itik?!

I'm missing my hubby so much.

I'm so happy to be with you.
I ♥ you for who you are.
There's time, i almost wanted to give up on you ..
And i always think that ..
Theres no way for us to be together,
After, for all those days that you made me cry,
The tears that filled with so much hatred and pains ..

... and i started to ...

HATE YOU!
Thats the only word, used to be in my mind.

My mind takes me away from you, while my heart tells me ..
"give him a chance. one day, he will learn to appreciate you."

But, i chose to follow my heart instead of my mind.

For after 2 years, of tolerating all your nonsenses/childish behaviour and attitude. Atlast, i managed to get over it. Not only me, but you .. yourself proved to me that you has changed. I'm so proud of you.

I thanked to Allah for this.

We're getting so much loving just like a lovebirds.

I ♥ YOU!
Just bear that in your mind.

I'm so blessed to have you and erwin by my side. (:

2009-08-28T17:46:00.008+08:00

"SAY HELLO! TO MY FATTY EYEBAG!

What a gloomy day!
It seems like,luck is not on my side this time. I failed for my first module, and i have to re-take the paper again. But, before that i scored "Credits" for my Mock Test. Maybe, my teacher was too lenient.

And i feel myself at a losing battle, right now. I'm so disappointed and i feel like giving up this Double Dip at first. But, i've changed my mind. Thus, i've putting so much effort for this. So, i've to endure it for awhile.

I'm in no mood for anything. Nothing seems to brighten up my day. Not a single thing. Not even Sorority Life. LOL!

I need to take a chill pill and think positively ahead.

Thats the thing about me, my attitude is sucks. I love to give up and always think negative about myself. I'm a negative person. Thats make me feel so low (eventhough,i don't look like one). You may see me, like a superwoman but deep down inside me, actually i'm not. But, i will try somehow.

I have a family to support, and i've to think in the long run about my future and my son. He is everything to me. Nothing else! I want him, to get a good educations and a good life. I love him so much.

Before, i get myself too emotional ..
Its better for me stop it.

Bye lar...

2009-08-26T21:00:00.005+08:00

"YES OR NO"
- feeback pls?

I wish to purchase this 28 Neutral Eyeshadow with Blushers. I really don't have any idea how good is this color? I'm afraid, that i would feel more regret instead of happy.

Please, give me a feedback!

I really want this, but i'm just afraid that it will turn out to be bad.
It brandless, i guess?
Does it?

LASTLY!

you gotta believe me on this?
i'm getting fatter.
Trust me!
Its my body & my face too!

I'm going to Marie France Bodyline, soon! Its just that i'm lazy to go for the consultation. SOON!

THANKS!

2009-08-26T18:47:00.005+08:00

"A LOT OF PICTURES NEED TO BE UPLOAD!"
- the fresh one and the basi-basi also!

"watching his nursery ryhmes"

"I'm missing him, so much!"

It will takes time for me to upload the pitchas okay. I think theres someone hold grudges towards me for no reason.

"Hmms, you know who you are la bitch?! I was merely asking you a very simple question and you can't even response to it? Since, you did not reply to my question .. and i totally got the answer. "Omg" I didn't know that you really take that matter, seriously? i thought you are rich what? unlike me. LOL!"

Presently, my studies is getting improved. As, i slowed myself down for awhile, learn and try to understand the sentences and those business-like words and atlast, i managed to catch-up! I'm still waiting for my result .. I'm so curious! I want to know how good i have done so far for my examinations.

Actually, i got a job at OOSH bar. But i keep giving them an excuses, telling them i'm not feeling well (the fact is my eyes swollen). But i expect them, to ignore me or something, but they're not .. They still text me a message asking me how am i? All this. So caring, right? Make me feel so half-hearted to paitao the job.

Why am i so bad, uh?

I'm actually quite disappointed with the pay there, i was expecting it to be $1.8k for monthly salary, because that was what they offered me last few years. But, now they decreased it to $1.6k? Its due to economy very bad and small amount to me. I mean, i need extra income so that i can put aside my money to buy for more things! I need atleast $1k +++ to be spend for my stuffs. I know, i'm too demanding. Maybe, i'm used to it already eversince i worked in Hooters. So, after i left that job .. that "shopaholic" mindset is still there, you see?

and on the other hand ..

That extra income of mine, can be useful when his money dries up. Because, i can't depend on other people to support us, except my family who is willing to help us out. I want to be independent! I need to find a part-time clerical job.

But i guess, i have to move on to groove on.

DON'T BE A SHOPAHOLIC!

I'm chilling the burger, right now. I gotta focus back on my notes then. And lastly, girls out there, have you ever been to www.cozycot.com, if you don't .. please kindly join it as member. You'll get to share a lot of beauty tips, the hottest make up in town and free gifts to redeem. So much fun!

Sayonara,baby! ♥

2009-08-25T04:07:00.008+08:00

"SELAMAT BERPUASA!"
- kepada umat islam yg tercinta. chey!

I'm trying to focus on the problems that i'm having right now, by synthesize it and solve it as soon as i can. I started to hate the way i'm feeling right now. Somehow, no one understand how i feels. And i don't wish to elaborate it, because it had happen a few times and i'm really sick and tired about it.

Once bitten, twice shy!

Still someone, is still pretending as if nothing has happened, eventhough he knew it theres something not right!

Urrghh! I'm in a stress mood. I can't be bothered with other thing. I'm trying so hard to analyse the notes! And that makes me in no mood to talk to anyone or either meet up with anyone. Look, i have my own problems! I really hope that i will pass my Diploma. I'm getting more anxiously waiting for my result for Business in English! I really hope i can make it!

Goodnights!

2009-08-20T23:47:00.001+08:00

I WON THE LATEST LIPOSONIC SLIMMING TREATMENT WORTH $380!
yay! yay!

I felt so stressful over studies again. Nothing new i guess! (: And guess what people, i won a MARIE FRANCE BODYLINE CONTEST! I want to be more slimmer a bit but not too much. And let me try to experience it first ya!

They called me in the afternoon just now, after i met yana to pass her the MAC Brushes! Its so unbelievable! I'm so looking forward for it la!

Cool shit or what?

And ...
Just maybe i'll be starting my new job as Guest Relation Officer at Oosh Bar. But, tomorrow i'll be meeting them to discuss about my school and so on. The pay is WOW!, which is better than Hooters! I think, i love to work in frontline and meet people from all over the world. Thats part of my passion. Somehow, i do wondering about, why am i taking a Double Diploma in Business Admin And Private Secretarial? For what? I just want the cirt maybe? Nevermind, i will think about that later then.

Just hope that luck is on my side!

Off to study!

2009-08-19T18:11:00.012+08:00

"LAAALLAAAAA ....!"
- i did not edit my pitchas!

Urggh! What a stifling day! I'm actually writing down all the notes that need to be go through and memorize! I was supposed to go for my job interview today, at Jean Yip as Customer Service Officer, but then, i didnt turn up. Because, i've been tied up with my studies and my school timing would not be appropriate for my working days. For sure, the timing will be clashed!

It's 6 days per week sia! And the timing is from morning till night!
MAU MATI OR WHAT!

Am i gaining a few kilos more?
Tell me, that i'm not!
See, i'm so beauty conscious!

I'm bored!! I always eat,Zzzzz ... And i always keep asking my Hubby;

".. Am i fat? Am i ugly? If you love me, you better tell me the truth!"

His answer was ..

"No, you're not ugly or fat either. Its just that your chin is getting abit chubbier!"

I replied ..

"Oh really? Then go find a high cheek bone girl la with no fat on cheeks!"

I knew it that i'd dispute with him about this. I also know i exaggerate and blown up this matter to big. LOL! I don't know why i'm getting so sensitive these days! But, still i ♥ him so much.

"Sorry, baby!"

After the arguments, i went to cook for him a "Fried Inspired Kentucky Chicken." Sweet right?! Hehe! Then, he went off to work. Maybe, i hardly see him at home because he was working night shift. And i always sleep all by myself alone in the room.

"I always watch movie all alone, eat all alone, playing internet all alone, lying on the bed all alone ... and everything i do ALWAYS all alone!"

♥ ------------------------------------------------ ♥

Let me presenting you ....

the NEW EDITION OF KOTEX LUXE!

I've just went online to get a free sample for KOTEX LUXE!
No harm trying it right?

Just register it at www.kotex.com.sg, and get a free sample within 21 days!

.. and not to forget to stand a chance to win! If only you participate it!

Lastly, i will try to blog more often with more exciting stories and news! (:

Goodbye!

2009-08-17T23:54:00.004+08:00

URGGHH!!
... musibot!

if only i have a twinnie.
wouldnt that be greatz?

School is normal like as usual. Nothing new, i just feel like my brain going to burst anytime soon. I just found out, that i need to pass all the modules, that i've learnt in order to get the Double Diploma Cirt?! For BA, i really dont have the confidences that i can pass it or not. Because, its sucks to core. I've to memorize everything and my big mistake is .. i did not highlight those important points, so that its easier for me to go through it!

Due to my laziness, that made me like this. I've to start everything from scratch. Now, thanks to my "PEMALAS" that i've to do it from page 1 till 187.

I need to relax myself.
Goodnights!

2009-08-15T03:55:00.002+08:00

"I LOVE KIM KARDASHIAN!"

She is super dead gorgeous.
She is the most voluptous and hot stuff babe.
She make me inspire to love my own body. (:

I remembered what she said,
"You don't have to look like a BONEY, to be sexy!"

Well, she is right!

2009-08-14T22:53:00.008+08:00

I learnt something new.
If you want something, do work hard for it and go for it.
Whatever the outcome is, least you've tried your best to do well for it.
Its all a matter of patience.
It may takes a long time, but you will gain a success in future.
In what way?
No doubt.
Just keep on trying, to lead a successful life.

Yana and i, were camwhoring in class.

"My friend said, i do look like i have a gigantic breast. Just like a pornstar! and to me, that made me look fat sia!"

For a moment, i'm away from my computer. As i'm busy studying and also with my daily routines. Life without working,was really bored. Hubby just started his new job yesterday, and the position demanded a lot as in, he has to work a very long hours from day till the next morning. I've counted the working hours. It is 12-13 hours. While waiting for his SAILSMAN course, in 2-3 months time. And his TP will be on october. Hopefully, he will pass it. He took a school driving course, not private. I meant, he is a fast learner. He only started this course for 2 months ago, and yet on october he gonna TP soon.

Cool shit or what?

Alhamdulillah.

Wonder why, i don't take driving license? Because for me, its not necessary for girls to take, unless you have your own money, and wish to buy one then its alright. But not for SHOWING-OFF. But i prefer, someone drives for me. For guys, its compulsary for them to take because it might be useful for work purpose and etc.

Let's talk about how to make our men love us more deeper.

• I think that girls need to gain more knowledges instead of being a DUMB-BLONDE.
• The most importantly, is personal hygiene on how you dress up, your looks and everything that involves with beauty. because this always important for first impression.
• Cooking is an advantage. "a basic would do, but not cooking instant maggie only."
• Great thinker and well-organised. "Sometimes, men may not have that kind of thinking like us."
• Never being a stupidity.
• Experiences in washing clothes and do house work is needed.
• Remember to shave your pubic hair.
• Act sexily, even if you're not sexy.
• Good in satisfying your loved ones in bed. "Dont persist on doing same style, if not your soulmate will get bored easily"
• Be humble, and don't think highly of yourself.
• Don't look down on them, because men are egoistic. "They are very sensitive when a women look down on them."
• Lastly, don't be a bitch. "Lanjaowei je. Never lanjaowei about someone infront of your hubby, if not he will label you as .. Makcik Kepo!"

Are you like what it stated above? Not sure? Do ask your men about this. If you pass all this above.

Means you're P-O-W-E-R!

If you're not. Just on standby.

All men in this world, wants to own it. Who doesnt, right? I believed they want their gf/wife to comes with a good package! Tip top No. 1!

So goodbye for now! (:

2009-08-10T22:08:00.007+08:00

when my mind starts to pondering ..
it makes me worried about it.
and i hate the fact,
that i need to find a solution to finish it quickly.
i persisted on doing the same thing everyday.
it makes me tired.
i always feel so low of myself.
arrghh! damn it!

"Will i be able to make it?"

i have two best interests in mind, which are taking diploma make-up artistry or taking a degree in business administration, after i have graduated my double diploma in BPS? I love business studies, but at the same time i do love make-ups too.

Or just maybe ....
I can take up make-up course as freelance. I've asked the make up artist from MAKE UP FOREVER, regarding the course and work as freelance make up artist for them ... it has good benefits working with their company, you'll get so much exposure and mostly all for special BIG events!

Not that all ....
maybe i should do freelance for the weekends and work in the office for the weekdays?
what you think?
i know its easy to say than doing it.

Why i choose to work with MAKE UP FOREVER?
no offences ..
nowadays, theres a lot of make up artist in singapore ..
not just within the country, but in the whole wide world.
most of them, are graduated make up artists but they dont work as one.
i know its hard, unless you have a connections then its good for you.
if you're not.
just heed to other alternatives.

But this was just my plan for future ..
please, do not imitate what i had plan for my future.

LOL!

Goodbye!

2009-08-08T01:17:00.004+08:00

I JUST WANT TO LOSE WEIGHT MORE!
- and have a more sexier and curvier body.

As i was lying on my bed, staring throughout the window .. thinking of something to do with my life and my future ahead. What do i need to improve on to go on further to accomplishes a tremendous goals in my life. I really can't make up my mind on what to do now? next? later? My mind is so stuck up.

I just measured out my vital stats is; 34C-26-35,my height is 1.64cm and my weight is 52kg. I'm so disappointed by looking at it because i wish to be more skinnier than that. I also did a BMI check, it state that i'm average.

Well, let's talk about other thing else. And yes, i will be taking my MOCK TEST 2 on the 17 August for my Business Administration and also for my Text Production Examination in a earlier of next month.

*spinninghead*

And for the next month is SEPTEMBER, it happens to be my birthday month. Fasting month. A very blissful month. Alhmadullilah. So it considered to be my 2nd year of puasa with my family. I just want the best for my family. Having them by my side is such a blessed. Little Erwin is getting very mishevious each day. As usual,with his HANDS-ON everything he see. But, he is such a lovely boy, he like to give me a sweet smile and then he would hugged me so tightly. Awww, i miss him so much.

Tomorrow, i'll be starting my new job as part-time manicurist at bedok unless i change my mind. LOL! Which is nearby my house, with a 15 minutes walk should be reach by then. I used to a manicurist girl before and that was like 3-4 years back before i started my previous job working in the office environment. I don't have the confidences yet to work in the office yet because it has been two years plus, i sit at home and plus during my pregnancy period. Haha! So chill the burger, alright? (:

I'm off to sleep.
Goodnight loves!

2009-08-06T23:15:00.003+08:00

LELONG!!!

I want to lelong my 24 Mac Dupe Brushes. It has a very soft and good for blending. I use one of the brush only for test. But then i find that i don't use that whole brushes, so i still end up using my old Mac Original Brushes. Because, when u get to used it sure we will keep using the same thing right? (:

So fast deal!
$30!

I discounted it $2, okay!

You may contact me direct or either tag me here. (:
Meet up at Bedok Mrt Only.

Andddd ...............

Do you love my nails? I painted it on my own, and put 3D stickers on it.
Its nice and beautiful.
*winks*

2009-08-06T22:52:00.001+08:00

"SELAMAT PENGANTIN BARU!"
- muhd ridhuan & roihan

It was their wedding on the 020808. May their marriage last long till forever. (: And the bad thing, it also fall on a very hot weather! But, i just tolerate it for awhile until the bride & groom came, so i went to take pictures with them and then headed home.

We also take a few of candid pictures, with my cousins and famillia as well. I dont know what else to say, but by looking at the pictures then you can tell whats going on there. As you can see got makcik kepos extra2 at the back, which i dont favor at all. So whatever.

Staying at home, make me feel damn bored. I keep yawning here and there. I'm back, to where i used to be a "HOUSEWIFE". Do my daily routine, rest at home and shake leg. Wait till weekend, then i can spend time with erwin. Wonder why, i couldnt take erwin with me? Because, my dad wont let him stay with me. Atok kan? Da sayang cucu, semua tk bleh. Sometimes, i almost beg them to let erwin stay with me for a few days. My mom is okay with me, its just that my dad. I'm tired to argue him.

So let him be for now. In future, for sure erwin gotta stay with me when i own a house.

2009-08-04T02:06:00.001+08:00

AS DAYS GOES BY....
- am i getting fatter each day? tell me about it then!

I felt so exhausted today. Because i'm back to school just now and i also learned [Chapter 11 - Filling], for today. It was about how to do filling in the right order by starting with an alphabetical, the advantages and the disadvantages of centralised and departmental filling. Umm, you don't get it? Its okay. Just a summarised. (: I also felt so much at ease also, eversince i am not working. The feeling is like so relaxing, but boring sometimes.

Yes, not forgetting i just bought 24 Mac Dupe Brushes from Make-Up Empire. The brushes is very smooth and fine. It worth your money. Really! If you're a make-up geek, then you should go to their webbie and order yours now. [da,mcm advertisement lak eh?] The blogshop owner, is a very patience person and kind. Haha! And very understanding to the max. GOOOODDD SERVVICEEEEE!

Right now, i'm studying while updating my blog. Wonder why am i studying in the middle of night? Because i like to study, like a very quiet place and where theres no one awake or even make noise. And thats the only time, i can focus and understands the questionaires and answers. Tomorrow, i'm going to fetch my baby at my mom's place. I really miss him so much and too much!

I'm thinking of having a another baby. Should i or shouldnt i? Shall break the news, when i am pregnant, okay. The bad bad news is, i've quit my job at Hooters. Please don't ask me why, i'm just tired. Just maybe, i need to find a job which is more relaxing a bit. Frankly speaking, i do miss working in Hooters. Its a great atmosphere! The negative part, is the people who were working there are not okay. So understand and understood la eh.

Now, i can sleep and eat till i gain weight. You'll see me gaining weight in a few months maybe. LOL! Not hot anymore. But i try not to be fat unless i am pregnant. Then, no choices will be given. Hopefully, everything gonna be great for our family and i also pray that Hubby get a better job offer with a HIGH PAY!

*pls,pls!*

Goodbye!
Goodnight!

2009-07-30T15:08:00.006+08:00

HERE,I COME FOR YOU!!
- say goodbye to fever.

I couldnt sleep well, these few days and you know what, its all thanks to damn fever. But now, i'm getting well soon. Meaning it is a positive sign for me, so that i can get back to work lor. LOL! So i always chat with my two owl beautiful ladies, Adex and Andrea. LOL! They accompanied me, almost everynight. But for now, adex will not be online that often. Maybe she is busy with her wedding preparation. She will be getting married on the 16th August at Tepak Sireh. She invited me and Hubby to her big day. She used to be my Hubby's bestie during Vocational School.

I shall come to her wedding, with no excuses to be made. She said, if i didn't turn up .. she will majok with me. LOL! Okay, i will try to make my time for you okay darling. =DD

And today, i'm schooling with a new module will start. Which is Computing Practical. I don't know what they will teach us, basically should be about computer lah. Hehe! Before i forgot, i have a few things in my shopping list need to be clear soon. LOL! All this is a preparation for going to Chinaone. Haha!

I've already ordered this. So it is confirmed!

I want this so badly! So nice and glitterish!! I'm going to buy it at PS!

I need to find something similar like this heel, so that it can goes well with my top. (:

I wanna take a nap then. =D
Bubye!

2009-07-29T21:41:00.003+08:00

Breakdown!
- i feel so lost.

I'm still pondering about something, which has not settle yet. When is this stupid games, will stop? Anyone know? Raise up your hand then. Sorry, i'm joking! I miss my son, as usual. I got this job offer as Part-time - Data Entry at Raffles place. The pay is damn small which is $3 lesser hourly from my current job. And that gonna be $6 per hour. It is a 5 days per week job. More conveniences for me, so that for the whole weekend i can spend time with my son. It also support my studies a little bit.

[candid's time]

Wait!
Don't jump into conclusion, alright?
This was just my second thoughts, ONLY! LOL!

What do you think? Should i or not? I just hate it when people keep pressurized me asking me to work more hours and more days! I totally hates it. They don't freaking understand my situation and i'm so tired! For now, i'm taking a long break you see. And btw, for your info to those is hp freako, as you can see that my hp is made from china and it is in pink color. Wonder why? Because i'm not into handphone that much. As long as i can call, text msg and thats fine for me. But what i'm so into is, laptop,ipod and camera! They were my bestfriends. The best of all. (:

Next week, i've got plans with my friends and also including Hubby's friends too. Its like a gathering. At CHINAONE on the 5th of August. So i am the host! Hopefully, nothing goes wrong for that day. I'll make sure, there will be no cancellation for that day.

Gell well, soon to me!

2009-07-29T15:05:00.007+08:00

FEVERISH PERIOD!
- well, im very weak.

I guess, theres a few changes with blogger website. I can't even upload pictures from here automatically. Anyone? Can tell me, if you encounter the same thing as i do? And now, i'd no choice but to use photobucket, back! Idiotics! Well, i'm still not feeling well. So Hubby and i, were feeling so sick. We both lying beside each other and help out each other. I can't depend anyone in the house. Sometimes, i feel like a stranger. If only, i have a lot of money, i will sure buy a new house and stay on my own. Its better, you see.

I hate it being in CYBERWORLD. Because you know why, its all because of the internet connectivity and thanks for the god damn IP ADDRESS. Someone thought, that i was hate-tagging her blog. Which was actually, i was with Hubby all the time. How can i use the internet? Same thing, goes to Paula's case. I got banned from her blog for nothing. But we are okay la. Luckily, she trusted me. This is not the first, it happens to me.

I know there's someone stoop me so low. I mean she should find out first' whose the culprit, instead of pointing at people anyhow. But, i have already make things clear with her. Yea, its true i do the confrontation first, doesnt mean i'm the culprit okay. I cried a lot that day, because i felt so hurt. But the good thing, she did apologized in her blog and deleted all the unecessary post. How can i do such things to you? You are not someone else, but my family. PALAPUKIPEHATETAGGERS! I have not yet, meet up with NANA C. She is staying near my house here. I can just walk or maybe take bus. LOL! Baby Ikhwan is super duper cute. I feel like want to kiss-kiss him.

Lil'Erwin is getting very mischevious each day. Whenever, he wanna grab things .. he will look at me and give me a mishevious smile and quickly grab those things. My mom is very patience with him. Seriously, he is very active and can't sit properly. All he wants is to stand up and throw all things around the house. He loves to play ball, so everything that he see, he will surely throw it on the floor and expect it to bounce back. August, gonna be a busy month for me. My friends, Adex Dice & Cla will be getting married on the 16 August i guess. My cussy and Hubby's friends wedding too. I need to meet up with Zura and her lil' boy also. Wah wah .. Busy kepe!

My studies are getting slack. I didn't concentrate much on studies. I need to buck up! Aiyoo! Btw, i've just created a new blogskin. But, i'm sure the alignment is slightly senget for 1024 X 768. Cos my laptop screen resolution is 1024 x 600. I will adjust it later okay. (:

♥♥

2009-07-29T05:06:00.000+08:00

"BLOG UNDER CONSTRUCTION!"

2009-07-28T21:00:00.005+08:00

I'm down with fever!"
- i'm so weak. HELP!

Guess what? I'm so feverish. And not good. I couldnt sit or lie down properly. I felt so uncomfortable, and grumpy. Everything to me is irritating. I'm also sad since yesterday. Unexpected things, happened. It makes me so lowly of myself. If not because for the unexpected incident happened yesterday, i wouldn't have know that she stoop me so low. Its kinda very personal, so i don't wish to elaborate it more. I've just create my own name in "BLING". Cool shit or what? Paula, i got it. LOL! I'm using an adobe photoshop. Its troublesome! So no copyright ok, i will do a new blogskin soon. (:

2009-07-24T21:16:00.003+08:00

Being pregnant is ..
- beautiful!

I've just watched this movie called "KNOCKED UP". Its hilarious! It reminds me a lot when i was pregnant before. I always think that being pregnant is troublesome. I mean there is some ways in terms of positive and negative right. Eventually, not everything is negative.

YOU MUST REALLY WATCH THIS!
I'm not sure whether this movie is out-dated or not.

After you watch this movie, trust me you're gonna learn something new - (those who are not pregnant) and you will started to fell in love with your husband again. Seriously, its about hows the process being pregnant. Etc; hormone changes & blah blah. But i love the fact of being pregnant, they will prioritise you more than anything else. Like my hubby, pampered me all the time. And i always need an attention all the time. I was not being understanding during that time. I kept bullying him. I knew that he was tired after work, with his extra overtime but i just pretend that i dont know anything and expect him to be there for me all the time.

I couldn't control my temper. It was not good at all. But when comes to the ending part, it was so touching. It make me feel like, "Shit, i wanna get pregnant again!"

Awww .. a few of my girlfriends were pregnant. I'm so happy for them. I think i'm in love with my hubby again. LOL! The part, when i was about to give birth he was there for me, holding my hand and blah blah..

ITS BEAUTIFUL.
So don't think that you're ugly okay. (:

2009-07-16T00:05:00.005+08:00

NOT EXPECTING!
- good news!

Well, skip everything for now. I'm lazy to upload pictures or to update pictures. I'm so tired. (: I'm so looking forward for my Mock Test for business studies and also Hooters photoshoot calendar next week. The themes for the calendar is SPORTS. So, my manager told me that, i'm going to be a BOXER. Cool or what? So, i might be wear a box short and a bra or a bra top, if i'm not mistaken. Its okay, i will take up this challenges. Be confident a bit eventho i'm lack of confidence. And ya, on friday i will be taking up my Test 2. If i pass, for that test i will get to own a station then. A LOT OF TIPS!!

Cool shit or what?
Chill the burger eh. LOL!

2009-07-12T09:16:00.003+08:00

AM I EXPECTING AGAIN?
the result is .....

I'm one week plus late for this month.
I'm still wondering what the result will be..
I'm afraid to check it.
I'm so scared to see the result.

..... am still pondering over it.

The main reasons are,

+ I'm not ready.
+ Not in financial stable yet.
+ Am still studying.
+ Still working.
+ Economy not good nowadays.
+ I still want to persue my dreams.
+ Its not easy to get back in shape.

But above all this, i still want to keep the baby. The word of "ABORTION" is like so cruel to me. My mom said, "Who knows the next one is, baby girl?" Do you know that to go through that 9 months of pregnancy is like very tiring for me. I don't wish to go through morning sickness again. I can't sleep well these few days thinking about it, till it make me cried when thinking about this. My instincts keep telling me that i'm pregnant. While my mind keep saying, "give it another week, to check again?"

Gdbye. ♥

2009-07-06T15:31:00.002+08:00

"Just a short update"
- i joined "RACE QUEEN PAGEANT"

I've been selected for the qualifying round. Which was supposed to be today. (Joined for fun) But unfortunately, i'm not going. Because i choose to spend time with my son today. All this while, i've been busy working right? So today, i'm so free, i guess i take this opportunity to spend the whole time with him. Actually, i need to send him back yesterday. But i delayed it.

And the other reason, is because my precious hubby disagree with me of joining this contest. I don't know for what fuck. I think he is jealous. Maybe he got this wild imagination of, his wife wearing sexy² lying on top of the car posing, infront of all the guys. LOL! Urghhh.... The event will start at 4.30pm today! Its ok, coming up hooter's calendar. Itu lagi sexy! (If i want to.) Dia tk marah plak eh. Cos it also involve with wearing sexily, like corset, nightie or whatever it is la.

Tomorrow, is our 2 years wedding anniversary. But we spent a lot on shopping, before anniversary lagi. We're now close to bankrupt soon. I'm off. And btw my hair is short now. Will update everything all the outdated thingy as well.

BUSY!²

2009-07-02T02:40:00.008+08:00

I'm On HIATUS...
- will be away for awhile.

-i'm having a grouper cousin sandwhich from HOOTERS.

I had a very tiring week, and almost every week i'm so busy with everything. I feel so suffocated. I need a space. No, its not about my family. Well, its mostly about my life. I feel like i didn't get to spend time with my family that much, and i also lost concentration on my studies. I'm learning to cope with all three things now, in a smooth way and stay chill the burger. Everything, about my family are totally good. I thanked god for that.

Alhamdullilah.

And last but not least, my 2 years wedding anniversary on this coming 7 July 2009. I'm looking forward for it. Hubby is getting very romantic each day tau. *winks*

Will be back to update about everything, alrights? ♥

2009-06-24T03:00:00.004+08:00

"I DON'T WANT THE DAY TO END SO FAST"
.. because i didn't get to enjoy much"

Lil'Erwin is not feeling well. I took care of him for the whole day. Of cos, he is my son. I ♥ him. I can't leave him just like that. I asked for leave yesterday. I got the MC, under my son's name. I feel like quiting this job, because of the working hours.

Sighing. I can't quit. Shit! Not now, later. Due to some personal reason. I'm tired. I'm just done with new layout. So please, eh stop it takmu copy aku eh. Nana, please check the alignment for me. Biaserla, Nana my blogskin's corrector. LOL!

I want to tido lah. Tomorrow, split shift!
Pundekz!

2009-06-22T23:06:00.003+08:00

"GLAMOUROUS,'QUEEN"
... i miss my son.

"That which is striking and beautiful is not always good,
but that which is good is always beautiful".

I didn't attend to class today. So, don't ask me why. I'm lazy pig nowadays. Due to tiredness. I miss spending time with Lil'Erwin. If only everyday, i can see him. Haish. Mesti BEEESSST! Nevermind, i just need to hold on to what i'm doing now. Think positively. I've just download a NIGHT IN THE MUSEUM 2, so lets see if its funny or not. I need to watch something to brighten up my day. I'm gonna watch it with Hubby.

♥ Nights!

2009-06-21T16:19:00.016+08:00

"KISS ME,KISS ME NOT!"
"stressful"
I feel like i hav been neglecting my studies, these lately. Due to my work. Last week, was my first module started which is "Business Administration". You know what i did, during that lesson, i was busy eating my LJS's food and chatting away with my friends. I can't concentrate much on it. Because i'm really tired, when i reached there, i felt so sleepy and didnt hav the mood to study. So goes along, chit-chatz. I need to really buck up. Work is a hectic for me.

Next week, gonna be a really busy week for me. Those stupid navy people will be coming to Singapore, so i gotta get my ass out there to work. CHIBAIZ! Die die, i still have to work and also go to school. I have to catch up a lot of things in school.

I cried just now, because i'm so stress. I feel like no one help me during my hardship. And Hubby, also depend on me. He don't have the balls to ask his family for help, instead of asking his family a help, he is actually making me pressurized. Everything i have to think!

Replied Tags ♥

21 Jun 09, 02:53
tITivOk
: u look so stunning la!!!
Me
: Thanks darling. Long time no chatting uhs!

21 Jun 09, 01:39
shima
: MUST KOL U NURUL BOURBON AR..HAHAHAHAHA =)
Me:
Wahh, suker eh shima kekek kan me. LOL! Pat keje time F&B training kiter da la asek bz ckp sal makan je. LOL! but then it turn out to be sucks! Euuuww!

20 Jun 09, 20:55
aisha
: chet! kau ni mmg celebrity pe pat internet dgn keje kau pon sama. link aku taw.
Me:
Link mmg link, link kau mane?

20 Jun 09, 16:31
JuLii
: WADUH!! Feeling2 celebrity. hehe.
Me:
LOL! Skali kala, ape salah nye. Haha! Chey!

20 Jun 09, 14:56
Nana Sontoloyo
: weewitttttttttttttttttttttt! :p
Me:
Weeewwwittt to u back. Likewise. Cheyyy rambut dia lawa seh. Nana da otw jadi HOT sey! Mcm gini EKA MAIRINA pon kalah. =P

20 Jun 09, 11:00
Yana B
: LAWAAAAAAA SAK!!! your pic in the menu!! feewwwiitt!! hehehe.
Me
: Is it, thank you babe! I also like your picture. Lawa and cute!

20 Jun 09, 00:17
babysassy
: wah... hot seh.. (:
Me:
Ish tkde la. U tk nampak i mcm tembam gitu. Hehe!

19 Jun 09, 22:05
B'nora
: bah!!!maut pe gambr menu.hees
Me:
Ish tkde la, maut babe. LOL! Thanks!

19 Jun 09, 19:41
Rynn_Kawaii
: i'm in love wiith ur blogskin love! ((: and you stay hot sizzling, momma! *mwuaksx*
Me
: Really? Ya i saw your blog also in pink and black gak eh. LOL! Thanks darling. Will link you up soon kays!

19 Jun 09, 15:42
Nana Goldies
: Wah Nurul, da macam celebrity lah dier.. Autograph segalak!
Me
: Ah ah la, tkpe la. Skali kala feeling2 jadi celebrity. LOL!

19 Jun 09, 05:12
elly.erika
: hey gf! lawa keper?? nak autograph also.. pls.... *wink*
: btw u know i have one of ur pic at my com. i dunno whether i dah send u ke blom la. and you are right PINOYS r like that.even at my workplace. Cust service is gd but teamwork wise NO. haha. TC! muah!
Me
: Haha. Tau tkpe. I da ckp nan my manager the pinoys attitude is sucks. LOL! Eh got my picture eh? Tkde la u tk send pon. ish!! Send laaaaa!!!

17 Jun 09, 23:31
Isma
: Darlingggg! cutenyaaa erwin!! mcm nak curi die bawak balek gituuu, eishhh geram. lol
Me
: Tu uhs, i pon tgk erwin pon geram. LOL!

17 Jun 09, 20:53
beauillusion
: happy 13th months to erwin!!! dah besar la dier~ and hope your bro are doing just fine dearie~
Me
: Thank you baybe love. (: Ya, my brother da okay. Thanks darlin.

17 Jun 09, 19:13
JuLii
: Aww. hope all is fine with your bro babe. Mudah-mudahan nothing serious. Am glad you're feeling better yourself. *wink*wink* Sorry if jarang drop by ur page hehe. Like super penat everyday. Gaahhh!
: Nursery and kindergarten kids can be a handful. LOL
Me
:Ya, my brother is doing fine. Till 1 month MC. Best eh! I can understand why you penat also. We've been thru the same situation also. *WINKS*

"I just want to go on top of the highest building in Singapore and scream out so loudly to let out my stress and depression. I just wish to let everything out."

2009-06-19T01:41:00.007+08:00

"DAMN,TIRED AH!
- i just tell off the bitch, to F.U.C.K off!

Lai lai. Here is my Hooters Menu. Nahh... Nak sangat tgk kan? (: Yea, da scan already! And, today the FNB training is okay. Just kinda sleepy a bit. Haha! I think today is my good day i guess, it seems like everyone are nice with me but except for PINOYS. As per normal la kan.

One of the customer, came up to me, show me the menu asking me whether is that me in that picture. I said, ya?. Then he ask for my autograph. Siakenz. I'm so paiseh. So my manager gave him one of the menu, and let me sign my name on it.

I signed it, "With lots of love, NURUL. XOXO!" Chey da mcm Spice Girl nye signature eh. Aku pon step celebrity je eh. Padahal2. I'm happy, cos lagi buat the pinoys dont wanna talk to me. Haha! Not a single word at all. Hah!

So my day, is great and everything went smoothly. Urgh! I need to go work so early tomorrow, i got F&B training. Second day! Split shift lagi. 1 pm to 11 pm.

Good night!

2009-06-17T13:47:00.008+08:00

AISHITERU ERWIN ♥
- Happy 1 year and 1 month, Erwin!

By the time u read this, i'm off to hospital. I'm going to visit my brother, he was hospitalised due to some problems, and i do not wish to elaborate it. But hopefully, after the scan he will be fine. Tomorrow, i gotta get back to work. Split shift somemore. 12pm to 11pm. Takpe2, shima ade okay la. (: Least, ade friend. You know i can't click most of the stupid pinoys. And i like to show attitude. Only to people who deserve it lor.

I spend the whole weekend with sweet pie, Erwin. Like always. Next week, i gotta catch up with my two good friend, Andrea and Eda. But, i'm totally broke now. So i suggested it to be next month, but they insist on to be that day. Takpe la, jumpe je la, tak payah makan. Haha! That will be before i start my school, on thursday mahs. Eda is riding a bike, so she will fetch me from my house. Class 2 bike you know. Gerek pe. It seems like i hav to act like a lesbian la. LOL!

Replied Tags ♥

17 Jun 09, 03:04
Nana Goldies
: ish, erwin nyer pipi... mintak kene gigit! Tembamnyer dier!!!
Me
: Haha. Tu luhs, ape tak dia makan 24/7 aje. LOL! Sampai i tk larat angkat dia tau.

16 Jun 09, 23:46
eedah
: ehhh lovegame my ringtone!
Me
: Haha. For my ringtone is the outdated "POKERFACE". LOL.

16 Jun 09, 22:00
JuLii
: Boo!! Hope you're feeling fine hun. Your baby! Gah pipi nya!!
Me
: I'm feeling so much better darling. Thank you for asking. Yah, tembam and semakin degil. LOL.

13 Jun 09, 11:39
Yana B
: i saw 'dance pe chance'! heheh.
Me
: Biaser gak. Jiwe hindustan. Like you don't know gitu. FIVE!

13 Jun 09, 04:54
Vivy
: erwin makin lame, makin look like u.. hehex.. so cute!!
Me
: Ya he is tembam. Really look like me? Better! Good. Mase kecik ikot daddy dia eh. Hee!

13 Jun 09, 01:01
Nana Sontoloyo
: chill the burger eh! relek relek..
Me
: Yesh, chill the burger eh. Chilling je. LOL!

See ya people. ♥

2009-06-13T02:46:00.008+08:00

♥ I MISS ERWIN!

I'm not feeling well these few days. I'm down with sore throat, fever and flu. And my boss gave me one week off. Then i asked her, "are you indirectly fire me or what?". Then she replied, "no, i want you to work. its just that i want you to rest more then you can come back for work." and i said, "okay".

I'll make sure she really mean it what she said. I want to upload erwin's picture. These pictures show that he was asleep, when he woke up, i bathe him. After that, i fed him food, then his chilling time is to watch his nursery ryhmes, every morning without fail. But instead of watching that, he watch other thing. What else, his mom's favoarite actor la, SHARUKH KHAN's movie. See atleast, he can layan his mom. You can tell by looking at his pictures with his MINI LAPTOP. =P

Cute right?

Tomorrow, i need to attend workshop tomorrow, for financial literacy programme. Its for young couples like us. I miss my son so much. I will meet him tomorrow then.

Off to sleep. (:
Bubbye!

2009-06-12T22:53:00.019+08:00

HOT WEATHER!
- till my nose bled. damn!

- my current desktop picture. nice? hehs!

I would like to thanks to, my beloved darling "NANA ARINA". For helped me out, for my blog. LOL! But she so funny, la. Nevermind, skip it then.

Replied Tags ♥ :

12 Jun 09, 21:28
JuLii
: Oh god. u must be one hot momma to be on the covers of hooter's menu. anyways, HELLO.

Me
: Oh, hee! Thank you, honey! I will link you up soon darling. Nice chatting with you over MSN earlier. (:

12 Jun 09, 12:51
eedah
: i feel like buying but den also broke LOL hahaha!

Me
: Aiyer. Buy la, nvm i wait for you also ok love. Haha!

12 Jun 09, 09:22
Nana Sontoloyo
: I feel like taking a clipper and pull her bloody hairy mole off on her lips << HAHAHAHAHAHHA!!! siak siak!!!
: alamak. i nak!!!!!!!!!!!!! tapi not now!!! B.R.O.K.E!! End of the month ar! lol

Me
: Tu bab, mcm sial tu natalie. I also don't know why she like fuck to me. LOL! You broke eh, okay uh. no worries, chill the burger ok. I wait for you.

♥♥

11 Jun 09, 19:45
eedah
: babe thanks for desiging for my new blog layout im so happy and and i totally appreacite thanks babe! mwahs!!!

Me
: No problem sayang, hope you'll like it darling. MUAKS!

♥♥

9 Jun 09, 20:32
shima
: mcm penah dgr je kans TACKY YET UNREFINED..haha:)

Me
: Biaser la, hooters gak. (: LOL.

♥♥

8 Jun 09, 21:23
beauillusion
: miss a fwen?

Me
: Yesh, love. My friend why?

♥♥

8 Jun 09, 00:06
Nana Goldies
: Hah! Ala, biaser lah orang-orang mcm ni dorang jealous lah bab dorang tak hot mcm u lah.. LOL! Tak sedar diri.. Ckp dgn dorang gi balek negeri sudah lah.. HEH! U just do your best in your career aye?
: Wah babe! Cover girl for hooters menu?? Cool or what!! Congrates2! Anyway, u slalu ade conflict dgn filipinos eh? Hah! Dulu u ever told me that u once work pat ane ntah pon dorang carik psl dgn u..

Me
: Uh, itu at my old workplace, WOODDOCTOR kan? Mcm sial ah filipino. I can't get a long with em, seriousli. But i'm doing okay so far. (: G mampos nan dorang!

♥♥

7 Jun 09, 22:31
beauillusion
: ive been there.. being in love with the same gender.. yes it is amazing emotion however we all know that this kind of love is a sin.. and it wont last.. haiz... muahh... stay pretty love.

Me
: Oh, i see. Ya i also understand it babe. After all, she is also my friend, i cant hate her for that rite? U also hot mom!

♥♥

7 Jun 09, 19:23
♥ wawa ♥
: we're so called somebody there . juz do ur best . eu haf da figure & looks . sure ur potential 2 way big diff den dem .
: congrats man ! ur da cover 4 hooters menu . kewl **** sey girl . wat bdh gan 2 filipino . many say hooter filipino will be lyk ***** wen they

Me
: Wah kiter, da jadi mcm anti-filipino eh. Haha! Thank you so much syg for the compliments. MUAKS!

♥♥

6 Jun 09, 00:31
shima
: haha..tt natalie just now ok wif me..tapi kan die punye gatal ngn customers..hahaha..i havent saw tt jiza yet..mesti mulot jahat nyer..

Me
: Yalors, but that day she was like okay with me. Don't know eh angin kot dia? LOL!

♥♥

5 Jun 09, 22:53
Nana Cyber
: FIlipinos Memang Most Macam SIal. Tak Sedar Diri Datang Negeri Orang. I Pon Pena Kene. Bingit Eh. U Must Ajar Sket Drg Nih. Hahas. Erwin Da Big! So Cute!

Me
: Tu uhs! Step pandai je dorang. MFUCKER tol. LOL! Ya, erwin da big and very notty! LOL!

♥♥

5 Jun 09, 17:52
beauillusion
: wah!!! cover girl??? u go girl!!! go all e way up!!! we support you all e way~

Me
: Thank you for your support darling!

♥♥

5 Jun 09, 10:34
eedah
: hie babe soo pretty hor you ! and your son mintak kene pitch! hahaha
Me: You also like model seh. I suker tau!

♥♥

4 Jun 09, 17:39
Nana Sontoloyo
: lawa sak rambut!!!!! EH!!! APE LAGI! ambik gambar hooters menu tu ah! Bachin! i missss u.

Me
: Okay, i miss you la masheemmmmm!! SOON!

♥♥

4 Jun 09, 15:53
yanabaybe
: wahh erwin da bole jln eh? and ur hair are so niceeee.. i liokeee~

Me
: Memang tu si kecik. Oh Thank u!

♥♥

4 Jun 09, 04:01
faeza
: Congrats on ur pix on the menu.. looking forward to see ur pix soon!!!

Me
: Okay love. Hehe! Thanks!

♥♥

31 May 09, 22:54
kila
: we must meet up one day. that time jmp jap tk puas bebual.ahhaks

Me
: Yesh! MUST! One day ok... Ingat tau!

♥♥

P.S: I just found out, a regular customer from, Hooters had a crush on me. He is an ang moh guy. *No big deal* Till his friend, an ex hooters girl added me in facebook. And so on .. long story. Bluek! (:

Nights! ♥

2009-06-12T01:52:00.005+08:00

"LELONG!LELONG!"
*Click on the picture to see clearer view"

*Natural Pallete - $35*

*88 shimmers colors - $40*

*24 Brushes - $55*

I'm just helping my friend for business, but i didn't ask for anything in return. I just want the set brushes from her, but she said need a capping for it. Minimum 15. So girls, please do support. Choose any these 3, and make it capping until 15. Can be any items.

- Please do support, okays! (:

Muuaahhhs! ♥

2009-06-08T02:31:00.008+08:00

FRIENDSHIP

"it means, will hold on tight with you and be there for you no matter what"

As i browse through my hp, i saw this picture of me with "lisarose" It was taken, during last year. When i'm fat. You can see the differences. And also a few days, before she went disappeared with no vaild reason and unexpected news came up. The day, when my hp went silence for the one whole day i started to felt uneasy, so i went and called iffah and caca who is the one whom answered the phone. She told me, lisa hasnt been contacting with em these few days.

So my instinct, has been telling me that something was not right. I text sharon, then she broke the news to me. Because, i know lisa very well. Everyday, sure she will call me and text me. Because almost everyday we meet.

"AIYER! I Miss Her!"
"Someone who is a good friend to me & a godmother for my son."

I tried so many ways to keep in touch with her inside. But i can't. Sharon keep giving me a lot of bloody excuses! But a friend of mine, told me she was with lisa in remand for awhile. She said, "Lisa, ever mention about you to me.. she said if not you wanna come for her court date but ur son was sick during that day?" When in the blue hell, i said like that. It must be her sister who told her this. Nevermind, i just really hope that one day she come out, i will tell her everything from A-Z.

Its very hard to be someone bestfriend.
Especially, girls.
Tend to be jealousy towards each other.
But as for her, shes not like that to me.
She maybe nasty to her enemy.
But she can be a very caring person at times too.

Goodnights!

2009-06-07T19:29:00.004+08:00

OMG!

"I mean she is so hot, but yet a lesbian. I just couldn't believe it either. That partner of hers is a girl also, she's not a butch but look exactly like girl, own a breast and butt. Just like other girl."

I was so shocked, when she told me she is in love. Then i replied, "congrats, get ready for your honeymoon period." Skali she said, she is in love with the same gender as us. I thought that she was joking with me at first but end up she's not. But, i did respect her decision lor.

I just said, "Love is so unpredictable, i mean it can happen with opposite sex and even our own gender."

People, i guess you all need to listen to, KATE PERRY - "I Kissed A Girl",then maybe you will understand. LOL! Its cool. I hope i won't get influence by her. "NONO!" Hehe! I still befriend with her, after i discovered the unexpected things. Well, my son is with me now. So cute, he is asleep now with his daddy. Btw, for the Hooters Menu, will be ready by 15 June. Will upload! =P

"Please wish me all the best for my test, tomorrow!"
Chiao!

2009-06-03T21:17:00.004+08:00

"GUESS WHAT?!
I BECAME THE COVER GIRL FOR THE HOOTERS MENU!"
- cool shit or what?

I really couldn't believe it at first, when my friend told me about it. She said, she saw it. But i thought she was joking with me, then i went inside the restaurant do learn some of the food. Then, Sam saw me and said "Nurul, you're the cover girl for the Hooter's menu tau." I was like, "really? Then he showed me the copies of the new menu. Siak ah, paisey seh aku. Don't worries, i will upload soon okay! PROMISE!

And i'm also happy that my friend will be joining Hooters any sooner. (: And i tell you what, i kena bully nan pompan sundal Hooters again. Haha! As indirectly la, like i said earlier, once i know everything they confirm mati nye. LOL! They saw my picture for the cover girl, this fat girl named JIZA. She got a stretch marks on her breast, and got a so-not-nice tattoo on her back. I also don't know how come they can employ a girl like her. The best part, she work there for 4 years, and now she is a part timer. LOL! Rank tak naik lak tu. So low. She said, i like step jambu to other girls. Kiwak!

Her face da pecah .. Nak step maut lak ..
LU REEELEEEEEEEEEKKKKKKKK SUAAAAAAAA!

My kaki gerek, Abigail is on leave. DAMN! (: I almost argued with my other senior girl, Natalie. But now we are okay. I will be having my first Hooter's test on next week. Tomorrow exam sak! Please wish me luck.

Amin.

2009-06-01T17:48:00.012+08:00

This gonna be the long entries for you all to read and see. With a lot of pictures will be update here. Because after this, i will be very busy with work. I need to earn a lil'bit more to buy something for my son. Honestly, i'm more to family typo. Then, my scedule is tight till i didn't get to catch up with my friends or attend to any of functions. Sometimes, i feel like i'm not a good friend. I can't always be there for my dear friend, like meet em up or something. If text msgs, i will entertain them but afterward, i'm busy. Eventho, i have a free time, i will spent time with my baby and family. Like going out with, my parents go dinner for the weekend. Everything that got to do with family.

WORK! WORK!

Work like a stuck up a bit to me. With the filipino girls working there, like fuck and attitude. A customer made a complaints against them, i was so delighted and happy. It was a guy, he was talking to me, then i was interrupted by my colleague. She said that i wont learn anything by talking to the guest. Skali ... Kwang2, kena complaint. The guest praised me, by saying eventho Nurul is new here, i see her service is way better than the rest of the girls. He meant the girls, who was on duty with me la. Padan muker dorang. Action nan aku lagi ah. They arent even singaporean, i know i'm new but they treated me like a Cinderella. I need to do that and here. But only, when my senior off or on mc. Then i will be treated like that. Because my senior really so called sayang me.

She said, aawww you're such a sweetheart.

I don't know what on earth they are like that to me. But i just chill only as i know that i'm still new wait till i know everything. Then, i guess i have to tell em off by saying, "Hey bitch, watch your back, fucktard!" LOL! Okay tak? Let's update about Erwin, he is learning to crawl and walk now. But now he managed to passed his standing part. LOL! I got the pictures! See it!! Last time, i was so obsessed with my BF/GF thingy, but when i'm married .. all i care is my little son. I even put up a pictures of Erwin at my desktop and my locker at work too. And my wallet too! He is so adorable. Awwww . I'm planning to have another baby next year! Hopefully, by next year my financial will stable. Insyallah.

"His playful's moment with his daddy"

"When he was asleep .."

Anyway, i need to do more sit up as i wish to pierce my belly button soon. I need to get rid off a few fats from my tummy. I weight myself is 52 KG! Thanks to Hooters. I need to be fast, like as if i'm exercising. My height is 1.64 or maybe 1.65 by cm. But i wish to slim more. I remembered a friend of mine Lisa, told me to lose weight till 50 kg, then it will be perfect already. Ok2, still in my mind tau. 2 more kg!

I need to catch up real soon, with Nana C, B'Nora, Nana S, Andrea, Eeda & Gegerl. I have so many dates to be catch up tau. I always miss it. Siakenz. SOON LADIES! Thank you for your understanding all this while. (:

2009-05-27T01:11:00.004+08:00

You know what? I just realised that i have a very low self-esteem. Sometimes, i feel myself so stupid and dumb maybe. Alright, i have just confessed it to my good friend, Andrea. She knows me so well for the 5 years. She kept saying that, i'm good and always telling me that i'm not dumb or whatsoever it is. I keep asking her, can i make it for my exam? Can i pass? But so far my papers, all the resuit was good. But i'm just so scared. I hate facing challenges in life. Its the truth.

Another example, about the photoshoot for Hooters Menu. Seriously, the girls mostly are way to skinny than me. I always think that i'm so fat and ugly. When i took a photoshoot with the girls, i feel like i want to stand at the last crowd. But my manager will push me to be infront and took my pictures. Eventhough, like they were praising me, but in my mindset i always said ..

"He was trying to make me feel better".

I always think negative than positive. Why? Because i'm a mother of one. I feel like i don't suit to be in this line or whatever it is. But actually, i was wrong. No one is perfect. And the way i look myself onto the mirror is too low of myself. I don't know why. Arghhh! But actually the outcome of the photoshoot, my manager did praised me. He said it the next day. He said that my pictures are perfect and pretty. And he will give me the copies soon. I'm so glad.

I also started to realised that i have to face it then i know whats the outcome. Can be anything. Accept the challenges, do your best than i will know my outcome. I always told my friends, never give up and be confident. Because, i don't want people to have this low self-esteem just like me. Its not good. Maybe i should be more relax and chill.

Okay eh. Let's chill the burger.
Its time for me to face the book now. Back to revision.
Arggh. I started to panic now. Haha!

Goodnight. I gotta go for school tomorrow.

I ♥ Erwin!

2009-05-26T01:55:00.003+08:00

Wah,wah! I'm getting so nervous, and i feel like i'm going to have a fever anytime soon. Why? Cos of my exam la duh! As if you all don't know ke. I didn't attend to my last lesson for English Business, today because i'm lazy. And i've got a bad headaches. Anyway, its my lastlesson there is nothing for us to learn or having a homework anyway. And until now, i don't know the result of my test. Ah pasal la, as long as i pass my exam sua kan? Okay, i need to take a deep breath ...

Pushhhh .........
Sighingggg !

Let's chill the burger eh. I'm afraid i can't do well on my exam. Right now i just read through my book, GRAMMAR AND STYLE WRITING and EVERYDAY LETTERS FOR BUSY PEOPLE. I have to do a self-revision. I skipped my class, and i went to pondok and study. A lil bit aje. Not much. I can't think so much, if not i will get a bad headaches. I need to ease my mind a little bit, by watching movie later on with hubby. Jgn salah paham, we will watch movie on his PSP. Haha! Tgh in processing download nie.

I miss my son. As usual. I've got a lots of his pictures to be upload soon.
Not now okay. (:

I nk chao dulu ye. Nights!

2009-05-23T01:27:00.007+08:00

WELCOME TO HOOTERS!
This is how the way i greet my guest.

I'm so shagged and also super duper tired. I have been busy working for these few days. So damn tiring sia! Leh diet and even exercise. Yesterday, good luck moment strike me, i got $156 for tips for just one day, which i got from my customer. I've got a regular customer sey! Baru keje tau. Which is a good start for me! He gave me a lot of money! He asked for my name, and he said he will look for me whenever he come to Hooters. Cool or what? I was not supposed to get the tips, because i havent even take my second test yet. But my boss said, if the customers give it in your hand, means yours. My senior, Abigail also said so. Gerek giler sey! Rezeki lar kan. (: Alhamdullilah, belom dapat gaji seh. If aku da pass for second test, incentives lain, tips lain, cash in hand lain. Wah can jadi kaya seh.

I miss my son, so much. I'm going to buy a nice clothes for him. Rezeki kan, so i should buy something for my son. I'm so excited that i get to meet my son tomorrow. You don't have any idea, how much i miss him? DAMN A LOT!

Maybe, after i graduated my studies i intend to join FULL-TIME in Hooters. It have a lot of benefits and its totally good. The basic pay is $1.6k excluding tips and incentives. I love my job so much. Eventhough, its tiring sometimes. Least, i'm glad that i'm working in the fun environment. And a good news for my Hubby, from the start he took his theory and his pratical he did .. all the way he passed. Never even FAIL one. COOL sia. I'm so happy for him, i will pray that he will get a good job. And may Allah bless him and our family.

Amin.
Alhamdullilah.
Syukur Nikmat. (:

2009-05-19T22:47:00.006+08:00

I get irritated easily by people who keep asking me, what is my job all about? Hooters? Why is it a big deal to them? Have you heard bad rumours about working in "Hooters"? Some people even text me a msg like asking me "Babe, you working at hooters as what"? It is obviously, that i'm working as waitress luhs!

There's only one position available right?!
What a lame question!

If you think that being a Hooters Girl, got a side line of offering another so called, "EXTRA SERVICE"? You're damn wrong! We get a lot of tips because we are friendly, doesn't mean we were wearing a tight tank top and orange short, that we are "CHEAPOS!" Please mind your language. So typical minded. If not, i wouldn't have wasted my time working in this kind of environment. And, "I'M MARRIED!" Maybe you're just plain jealous because your husband/bf, wouldnt let you work in Hooters. (terpakse act like a bitch.)

If you started to realised that i have been ignoring you for quite sometimes, means i do have problems with you, girl. Like i said earlier, i like to bottle up my feelings.

I thanked my husband for giving me the trust by letting me work in Hooters. My husband is very open minded and understanding okay! I also told him about the photoshoot, that i've took last week. He still support me and so on. But i'm not that really slim la, maybe average in size. (: This saturday, they will be a "Group Photoshoot" will be held at Hooters. After that, around July they will choose the best and only selected people to join for calendar photoshoot. That mean, we have to wear, A BIKINI, lacy corset, or sexy satin night gown. Something like that. If only, i get selected la. And anyway, the very best part .. i get paid to do all these photoshoot tau.

I just need to lose some fats around my tummy area. The rest are okay. (: I did asked hubby for permission. He said, Okay. He said that he is proud to have a wife who is confident and so called sexy la to him. He just want to pleased me, i guess. but i will never forget that, i'm a mother to my son and a wife to my husband. Sweet right?

I need to prepare for my examination real soon and also do my revision on the 30th May. Please god, i really hope that i can pass my exam. This is my dream and goal that i want to succeed in life.

Will update the pictures soon.
*sighings*

2009-05-18T20:58:00.008+08:00

I just upload a new pictures of Lil'Erwin, this picture was taken on his birthday at Selera's Restaurant. These week, wasn't a good week for me. I'm down with flu,cough and fever. I had no appetite to eat either. I didn't turn up for school today. So, i'm still clueless whether i pass my test or not? Maybe not this time.

Lil'Erwin is good at biting people's hand and after that he will laughing away as if he has succeed something like that. LOL! Until he left a mark on my hand. Very naughty and active. I miss my son so much. I didn't get to hug him that much. I hate it. I feel like having soup or tom yam soup. But in my dream aje la. No one helping me here at home. I still have to wash clothes and so on. Hubby is not helping me at all. All he did, sleep, eat, playing games and lepak with his friends.

I'm thinking of having another child. But not now, i would prefer the second one to come out to be a twin! I have got the feelings. Just a feelings. LOL! All this will be move forward for next year's planning. For this year, i'm totally busy. (:

Chao!

2009-05-17T22:35:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ERWIN!

I'm really sick these few days.
Down with flu,cough and fever.
Mommy sorry kay Erwin.
Will make it up next time.

See the picture above.
My face without make up and pale.
And also my new hair.

Tgh demam also nk bikin rambut.
*Hubby suruh*

So on, the next day i went for photoshoot for Hooters Menu.
Don't be suprised if you see me in Hooters Menu ok. (:
I will upload the copies once i got the pic ok.
But still i feel i'm fat. LOL.
Next week, there will be another photoshoot. =DDD

K, will update everything when i'm fine ok. Bye. (:

2009-05-15T17:27:00.004+08:00

I'M DOWN WITH FLU!

*I gotta photoshoot to attend tomorrow, for Hooters Menu.
Hopefully, i'm well by then.*

My manager Imah, just called me to inform me. After so long, i have not come for work. Rindu tau i.

I'm in no mood.

I need to catch up with my babes soon. See ya real soon k loves!

D A M N, i'm feeling so sick!

2009-05-15T00:29:00.002+08:00

I'm feeling so sad. I feel like a lot of unexpected things happened in my life. I started to think about my late son, Muhd Jazali Bin Muhammad Jazli he was born on the 4th Of August, Saturday at 9 am in the morning. I still can remember how he look like, he got a features of me and my husband. If only, he was not sick at that time i'm sure he will still be with us by now. Maybe its fated already. Even if he can live, he won't be able to live long because of his multiples abnormalities.

That was when the doctor broke the news to me. I was 5 month pregnant at that point of time. I still insist wanted to keep him, because he is my son, and i was the one who brought him into this world. So why must i let him go? I was so emotional, i can't sleep, i can't eat, i felt so restless, i'm getting weak each day and i can feel his heartbeat. I kept crying. I remember that the doctor called me and asked me to go for check up again. I went through another check up, and scan the baby. He was unwell, until the doctor get the counsellor to talked to me and so on.

I kept crying, and said NO.

"How can you people, ask me to let go of him? He is my son, my flesh and blood!"

Then the doctor talked to Hubby. He was saying that, it will also affect me. Because he is within me. The baby was sick and i was weak too. He was afraid that i might not have the strength, 50/50 i might also lose my life. Hubby hugged me and keep telling me that, he doesn't want to lose me. He love me so much.

"B, anak boleh buat lagi, tapi bini tak leh carik seh b.. Our baby is sick. You're not cruel. Our baby can understand our situation b.."

That is what he said to me. He cried too.

I still don't care, and want to keep the baby. Until one day, i dreamt ... this guy, he was tall, fair skin, short neat hair, he does look alike like hubby but clean.. He was smilling at me, kissed my hand, went to the door and he said "Bye,mak.." Then i woke up. And i cried. You don't have idea, how i feel at that moment. I think, and think .. for his own good, its better for me to let him go. I know Allah love him, he will be in heaven. He will be prefect in there.

So i called Hubby and told him, "B, i made a decision i want to go to hospital now.."
Then Hubby replied, "Alright b...." He was with his friends they accompanied us to hospital. So, i still keep on delay again. I just can't stop crying. I'm so hurt. Lastly, the doctor inserted one pill .. a few minutes later the contraction started .. I'm in a hella great pain. I keep vomitting, having fever ... Every hour, they keep insert 1 pill at the time. Until it reached at fifth times. I gave birth finally.

I heard nothing,but silence. No sound of baby cries. Only his body. Its true what the doctor said, he was sick. I hold him and kissed his forehead. "Mummy love you, Jazali" Then the nurse, asked me whether i wish to bury the baby or give my baby to hospital. I said, NO WAY, i want my baby to be bury. They kept him in the mortuary. I was so emotional by then. I cried a lot. Until the next day, My in law, family and hubby went to buried the baby without me tag along. I was in the hospital. I looked at his last body. Then Hubby carry him away, to bury him at CCK's Malay Cementery.

This is the part of my story. We have been through a lot. After the two months later, i found out that i was pregnant. That was fast! (:

Erwin Danish, my son. That is why i love him so much. By looking at him,really remind me of Jazali. They really look alike. So now, you understand how strong is Mother's love.

Goodnight.
I'm down with flu.
Bye.

2009-05-14T12:34:00.015+08:00

I don't know why, i don't see theres a need for me to REALLY REALLY put my make up on. Maybe because i'm getting bored with my make up always putting on. And now i don't really make up for myself like real dramatic looks. I just wear simple make up, because i still want people to see that i still own a natural beauty. But stil i love make ups and so on. Only special occassion then i will wear pretty-pretty make up.

Come and take a look, the pictures below during Mother's Day;

We went to Hajah Maimunah, and bedal the foods. LOL. Along with my beautiful mummy, daddy, lil'erwin and my hubbby. We had so much, on that day. And i got to lepas kan rindu at Erwin. (:

So on ...

Shades Of Pink
with nana arina.

I have not taken a lot of pictures for this. Because we were in the rush to make up and Nana gotta send me to school also. Chey. But she look damn pretty. Her bloody colleague, Azimah her attitude is like fucktard. My first impression towards her already not good. Can see that she is the type to backstab people. Nevermind. Ignore her.

This month wasn't a good month for me. It make me wanna cry sometimes because it will turn to be stressful. My outing with Nana C & B'Nora have to delayed. Due to Erwin's Birthday for this month.

*Eedah,sorry for the delay. Wireless cock up seh. ):*

I REALLY HOPE THAT I CAN COME FOR TODAY CLASS!

2009-05-14T04:25:00.003+08:00

I'm still not asleep yet. It is because, i was studying and do my homework just now. So, my internet wireless were cut off for awhile due to don't know why. I started to playing around with my brushes using photoshop. Here it is,my latest layout after for so long. But i think maybe got something wrong with the width of this layout. I can't finish it all now because of the wireless kinda sucky and slow. Will complete everything slowly. I'm in love with Pussycat Dolls, especially Nicole the lead singer. She is so smart and yet hot. By liking her really gave me idea on what to do with my layout. I'm afraid that i can't get to see PCD for this coming 4th June 2009. I hate it, when come to this. I really hope, once i got my pay the tickets is still available.

DAMN!DAMN!

The bad news is today is my first day of mensus. I'm kinda mood swing a lil'bit. Still not yet update the latest pictures. ): I really hope that i can attend for tomorrow lesson and new class. Ya, before i forgot something. I need to let out something;

ALL RIGHTS RESERVED!

Just be original and stick to your OWN design. I'm not trying to be mean, but this is the moment of truth. I know that you have been bloghopping to people's blog and you admiring some part of their design. And that's give you an idea to design your blog. And yes, you make a great combinations and it turn out to be pretty well but messy.

Some of the girls in blogsphere, also ever complaints to me that you are so "ACTION", like they asked for your help on something you would just ignore or pretend as in no one ask you anything. Remember, our reputation in blogsphere is very important also. If you can't or anything just tell them in a nice way without offended them.

I think you need to buck up with your attitude problem. Be nice to people, then people will learn to respect you. People always said, "biar step bodoh tapi jangan jadi bodoh step pandai". and yet selfish. Don't compete with your own friends. We do help one another. If you are interested in people's design. Don't steal sources, but ask them for permission. (:

If anyone, ask me about who i was refering to that means org tu terasa ok.

So peace out, buddy.

Off to sleep.
Nights!

2009-05-12T00:59:00.006+08:00

MOCK TEST! MOCK TEST!
I'm so nervous, really!

I feel like i'm going to be sick any sooner. My exam is just around the corner.
Just now was my mock test. All i did was, to analyse the questions, understand and do. I was so nervous, till my hand shaking. I'm always like this when come to this part.

*Click On It For Clear View*

What make me ease?
I have just got my Notices & Reports. It stated CREDIT+ ! Cool or what? I'm so excited sometimes, and at times i can get so nervous which can lead to depressing.

And the back of the paper.

Nurul,

Please improve your writing, Not quite clear - sometimes.
Write the letter a bit bigger and clearly.

Mr Nair.

Tak bis2. LOL. Too cursive and small i guess. =P

....

BESIDE ALL THIS !!!
I have a pictures of my family during Mother's Day celebration and my day with EKA ARINA,
to be upload soon.
Not now.
I'm BUSY lar.

I need to take a nap now.

BUZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ!!!

2009-05-10T00:03:00.006+08:00

Firstly,
i would like to make an annoucements to all..
HOTHOT MUMMIES IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD a,

"HAPPY MOTHERS DAY!!"

May all your wish come true.
May you be blessed.
May you have a healthy life!

To My Beautiful Mother:

You brought me into this world.
You love me so much more than anything else.
You always shower me with happiness.
You never leave me alone.
You are the who always be there for me when i'm down.
You always support me when i don't have a confidence to do my exams.
You always taught me the right things, but i always make you disappointed.
You care for me so much.
You cried for me when i do things that make you disappointed.
You always forgive me time and time again, eventhough i always hurt you.

When i fall,
and i cried because no one is there to help me.
You will always lift me up and tell me to look forward for future.
When people, look down on me.
You will prove to them,
that they are wrong.
I started to realised that i share a lot of unhappiness and the happiness moments in my life with you.

Without you,
I have no one to talk to like you always do.
I have no one to pamper me just like the way you do.
I have no one to hear my stories just like you do.

I'm sorry for hurting you so much in the past, Mummy.
I promise you that i will be a good daughter to you.

&

A good Mummy and Wife to my family. ♥

"Happy Mother's Day!"

&

Not forgetting another wish for my Daddy.
I know that Mummy and you are not together since i'm young.
And both of you have your own life to lead.
But i will never forget your kindness and care towards me.

"Happy birthday to you, Daddy!"
with so much love from me to you.

"What a coincidences my father's birthday is on the 10th May, same as mother's day!"

*lots of kisses and hugs*
♥♥

2009-05-04T23:39:00.003+08:00

Hmm.
I'm thinking about, what do i need to share and talk about now?

Umms.
As usual school, twice per week. Not yet working. Exam will be coming soon on 4 June 2009 for the Business English. What else?

I've got CREDITS for my report! Seriously, i don't have the confident actually do the report.

I kept complaining and say;

"I don't think i can do it .."
"Confirm fail nye sey!"

Suddenly ...
PAAAKKKKKKKKK!

C R E D I T S !

I'm trying my best to get distinction for every test i do. But i have to take things slowly. One step at a time luhs. Anyway, i will be having a MOCK TEST on 11 June, please wish me all the best!

&

AKU JIWE ANAK AKU!

THANK YOU!

2009-04-28T20:56:00.015+08:00

The Days Of My Life
Past & Present.

When i looked back at my past's pictures, when i was still young, happy go lucky. When there is no commitment to be made. No stress or nothing. Except enjoyment in my head. Had fun with my ex schoolmates and with group of that i used to have. I felt so much happier and freedom. I don't have a picture of me and the other friends. Because most of my friends were guys. And my hubby don't really like it, and threw away the pictures. ): I miss the old times.

Seriously ..

But what i never regret is to have Lil'Erwin in my life. He is the apple of my heart and soul. I really love him so much. I've sacrifices a lot for him. I do really hope that in future, he will appreciate me. (:

Dear Erwin,
Mummy is working very hard for you. I want you to have a good future ahead. I might make a mistake in the past, but i don't wish you to go through the same thing what i have been gone through before. I don't want to put any burden on you, darling. When there's no one for you to turn to, you still have me by your side. If only you know how much mummy love you. Sometimes, i can even cry without seeing you. I miss you so much. I always called your granny so many times, to check on you. To see,how have you been? Sometimes,i can hear you laughing. It make me ease my worries and misses for you. From the bottom of my heart .. The truth is "I ♥ YOU". Just bare that in your mind.

♥ when he was 3 months old. (:

One day if any of you, become a mother. I'm sure you will understand how i feel. Right for the single ladies, enjoy puas2 eh. Nanti da kahwin, tk leh enjoy sangat tau. =P

2009-04-21T17:29:00.009+08:00

I'M SO IN LOVE WITH ..
PINK!!

I'm gonna get all these stuff real soon. I think i need to make an extreme makeover of myself. I want to make my hair wavy instead of just rebonding. I wish to highlight my hair in medium blonde or maybe put a bit ash blonde highlight also. (:

Which one? Jessica or Beyonce?

As for Jessica, i really envy her body so much. Omg! I want her beautiful glowing tan skin. It very smooth and glossy but yet tan. As for beyonce, i love her voluptous body. Seriously, she got a breast and butt and Oooo sexy body! And i wanna get blonde hair colour hair just like her. I need to work it out more, to get a body just like them. Come on!

Bronze Moisturizer & Voluptous Mascara! From VS. I'm gonna get it!

I'm back again shopping for Victoria Secrets. Last time, i always buy bags,tote from VS. Eversince, it started to become too common. I've stop buying it already. But now, i wanted to buy their make ups, for face and body only. And some of the bag, have been sold to my some of friends and right now only one bag left. The glossy one, in read, which written VS all over. For sale? Don't know yet. Still thinking, but actually most of the bags are pretty nice luhs. (: I missed school yesterday. Because i'm down with flu. Idiotic! Its damn irritating. I feel like, i want to be single back, and get back my freedom again. (: Nono, don't get me wrong, Hubby and i are doing fine. You know sometimes, we tend to miss those things in the past. Haha! I'm gonna seal my mouth over this.

Secrets are meant to be kept in my heart.

Alright, i will disprivatise my blog once, i'm done with my blogskin. I'm going to work tomorrow. 10AM-6PM. 8 hours man! Tsk! I miss Erwin so much. For his birthday, next month .. i think i'm gonna cancel it maybe. Because most of the slots at Downtown East, is full. Maybe i will try other alternatives.

Any idea?
Share with me then.

2009-04-20T19:49:00.001+08:00

"I'M SO GONNA REBEL SOON.
DA GANG NAN ENEMY AKU NAMPAK?! HAHA!"

2009-04-19T11:46:00.002+08:00

Hi, to all my fellow readers.
Most prolly i will NOT private my blog anymore.
50/50.
And i will reply to all your taggers at my post. (:
I've got my own laptop.
So i'm free to do anything i want.
I'm going to make a new blogskin.

NO BLOODY COPYRIGHTS!

"To my dearest, paula. I'm so sorry that i didn't turn up on your special day of your Chantique Bridal Contest. I will tell you about it later. But i just wish you all the best honey. MUACKS!".

2009-04-18T11:27:00.004+08:00

I would like to update about my life right now.
I have been busy with work always!
Hubby seems to be very good "boy" for these past few days.
He helped me out to do housework, and also cook for me.
Sweet right?
I just brought a laptop.
ASPIREONE in white la.
I'm the type tk leh kena pyscho nan salesman luhs.
Haha!
But its real good.
in 160gb.
If i'm not wrong. (:
but the not really good thing is, this mini laptop ..
do not have any cd-drive.
In window XP.
I can't even install my Photoshop Elements 6.
But then .....
Someone save my day!
My husband.
He is good at computer and stuff.
HACKERD.

Atlast i got a Photoshop Elements 7 not version 6 which is under PSE.
He gave me latest version.
No cd rom needed.
And he also change for me the sidebar and the window of this computer.
Normally windows XP, the side bar and menu bar are all in blue and green right.
But this time,
mine is under DARKSIDE themes.
Cool or what sia my husband.
I love him. Haha!
I've got a lot of things in my mini lappy now. =P
*Don't forget to click on the picture for a clearer view.*

AiyoChaloMalo.

2009-04-15T19:35:00.004+08:00

I LOVE YOU ERWIN !

♥♥♥♥

I seriously hate it when i feel this way.
I hate hypocrites.
Why do my friends always has to turn out to be my enemy.
And my enemy will turn out to be my good friend.
I'm very sensitive,
when come to this.
And i do backing my friends,
whenever they need help or anything.
I'll surely be there help them out.
But ...

I just realised,
people sometimes, just think about themselves.
But don't care about their own friend's feelings.
She knows i don't like that person,
but she still pretend nothing happen,
and go ahead keep in touch with that person.
Knowing that,
i had conflicts with that person.
But when comes to her,
i always backing her all the way,
eventhough i don't know who is her enemy at all.

FUCK IT, luhs.
I just want to focus on my own life.
I'm the type,
who like to bottle up my feelings.
Until .........
blah blah.
Malas already.
Masa nak carik duit karan.
Haha!
Ade kawan ramai pon susah.

G O O D B Y E !

2009-04-14T00:00:00.005+08:00

Happy² day for me, but yet tired day for me as well. I'm glad i've made it again for Memo TWO - Test 1. The answer is: PASSED!, but still i want credit/distinction is still the best uhs. =P While studying how to do a leaflet, i was busy snapping pictures, just a few only. Hahs! Tomorrow, my first day working at Hooters. OMG. I'm very nervous. I feel so fat luhs now. I love to eat and eat only.

For the next two weeks, i gotta attend two classes already by then for the following the week. One is English for Business and the other is Text production, i think got to do with computer's thingy. Today, we learnt about parallel, etc infinitive,nouns,adjective and so on. Aku da pening sey. Da lamer tk skola lar kan. Tsk! Semakin hari semakin susah lak eh. Banyak doa je la aku. (: And to all people, who keep requesting me to take a picture of me in Hooters uniform, I WILL LAH! Chill uhs, lom start keje lar geng! LOL!

Off to sleep.
Goodnight! ♥

2009-04-11T22:02:00.007+08:00

"HOOTERS!! HERE I COME!"

I went for Hooter's briefing at Clarke Quay in the afternoon just now. 3 hours briefing about the job all.. I managed to answer all questions. Haha! Can you imagine i also got 3 test which is basic test, mid test, and final test. for this Hooters. Haha. Tension²!

We must know;

- Where is the first HOOTERS were built at?
AMERICA!

- Where is the first HOOTERS was built in ASIA?
SINGAPORE.

- How many HOOTERS in ASIA?
Two.
Taipei & SINGAPORE.

And so on .....

I'm tired to go any further luhs. I will be working next week, which is on ..
Tuesday,Wednesday,Thurdays,Friday & Saturday. But with different shifts, some morning and afternoon. Hahs! I need to work hard for this month, because next month gonna be ERWIN'S FIRST YEAR B'DAY! I'm so gonna miss him so much. I don't know why .. my hubby like getting so jealousy each day. For what fuck also i don't know. I always thought he don't bother about me. But this time, MELAMPAU! My scedule for this week, very tight man. I even forgot about Paula's Chantique Bridal Contest. OMG! I feel so bad. I called her just now.

All she said is, "NVM WHATEVER IT IS,YOU MUST COME FOR THIS SATURDAY NYE."

Oke² babe. I will try my best. Kiwak, how forgetful i am. Alermak. Tomorrow i'm schooling. I think gain weight a bit. Nevermind, wait till i work at HOOTERS then can slim down. Sighing .......

GOODBYE.

2009-04-09T01:44:00.003+08:00

I'm so tired. I feel so shagged. Guess what, i went for interview at HOOTERS at clarke quay before i start work. I was so freaking nervous because, i'm afraid that i mite feel a bit awkward, ya la as you people know that the girls there are all sexy. Their looks is average but they have a pleasant and friendly personality. That was my first impression towards them.

They greeted me, and i told them i'm coming for interview, they nod and let me sit down. And the manager gave me a form, and ask me "Are you Nurul? Then i replied "yes", so another Manager came and talked to me, were asking a lot of things and tell me more about the jobscope. I'm working as "waitress" there, i will be earning about $9 per hour. If more than 5 hrs, they will pay me additional $4 dollars extra, but if more than 8 hours, i will be entitled 50% discount if i makan at Hooters. Cool huh? They want me to work FULL TIME, i told them i can't commit as i have a family and studies need to be taken care of. I will be getting my tips everyday,after i end my work. The pay will be on the 1st of every month. (:

"THE PAY BOMBBBBBBBB!!"

I even try my uniform, OMG! the short was damnnnn... pendek, can see pantat! I asked them for 3 times bigger than the short they gave to me. So yes, they change it for me. I was so shy man. I keep telling the manager, a malay lady... "Malu seh..." then ask for another bigger, then she say nono. Haha. She even took a picture of me wearing the uniform from head to toe, full body and half body picture. I know, its look like kinda cheapskate right, that's what people have been thinking about. But, the only think we should learn think positive, it is all depends on individual, whether they want to be cheap or not. Because i have the confident in myself, that i won't go flirt around. My hubby don't allowed me to work here actually, but i fuck care him, i still go against his wish. Guys are chibai sometimes, if you listen to them,you can never go up. And they are selfish, they can do anything while we cannot. Come on, this 2009! But still i know my limits la.

Nyehahahahs. Wish me all the best tau. This week my last day working at SHIRAZ. And this saturday i'm going to Hooter's briefing. Haha!

GOODBYE.

2009-04-08T14:41:00.004+08:00

I'm going to work today, after for so long i have been MIA from them. They called me, asking me to come to work. Yesterday night, about Hubby and i were having a real good time tau. Haha! Don't ask me why! I think i need to control my temper, i tend to boil up easily. I was refering to someone who i detest most. Hubby told me, to relax myself. "Jangan layan budak² kecik, confirm main police." But have you people hear about a common quote;

"A friend can become your enemy,
and your enemy can turn out to be your friend."

I think this quote mostly ever happens to everyone, i guess. I hate to be with someone who is two headed snake, and has a childish mindset. Like i always said, if you think you can be two headed snake, i can be triple headed snake than you. That's what we called it, a "BITCH".

A good people, can change to be bad, and a bad people can change to be good. Once the good people change to be bad, it will getting worst, and as for the bad people it will change to better and better. So the moral of my story, just be yourself, by not making things worst. Don't pretend to be someone else. Love yourself before you love other people.

That's why, i don't really like to have a lot of girlfriends because of this la. Haha! Backstab here and there. I prefer to be alone and mind my own business, but there's one thing about me, i like to "REBEL", for example if the person like think so highly of herself and trying to insult me indirectly, you will just see me smile, and say nothing. But will keep it in mind, and till the day you made a small mistake, i can drive it to a big matter. Haha! So listen up, don't tryna think highly of yourself, cos you're not perfect too. Just look at the mirror, maybe you need an EXTREME makeover tho. LOL! Pity you girl. Haha!

SALAM NAMASTE!

2009-04-07T19:00:00.007+08:00

"HELPP...! Stressful Period!"

I just reached home, from shopping at Parkway Parade with my son,hubby and sis in law. I have a lot of reports & memo in Business to be done soon. Its like a homework for us to bring back and do it. And a few notes that need to go through and self-revision. These are the DIS-advantages when you're taking a night class, we cannot gurantee them 100% to teach you everything in that whole lesson. For example, you're late for your class, so thats it. You cannot reverse and go back to the topic and go throught all over again. NO WAY! So that's why i have to be more wisely and more concentration in this course. Once you miss, mati lar jgn harap dpt patah alik.

Somemore, my teacher is an indian people. The way they speak and their pronouncation, everything always has a letter [R] at the end of the word then full stop. He always go through very fast, and sometimes can make me confused. I just got my MEMO test, for business .. i made it again. I passed, but a lot of corrections, and especially my handwriting cursive but cincai. But yesterday, i got do another MEMO, with a very nice handwriting. Hopefully i pass, and maybe get a credit? or distinction...? Chey! Mcm paham! But overall, everything is okay. (:

And ... these days, i learnt how to cook. Yesterday, i cooked Spaghetti, but the day before is Chicken Masak Oyster Sauce. Haha! Enak la, believe it or not. Haha! Here is the picture. Semangat ey. And tomorrow, i'm going to interview at HOOTERS, which is against my hubby wish. Its not that i want to be rude or not, but due to some reason. Like i said earlier, if he can do the things against my wish, why not me? True? Its a PAYBACK time! Haha!

"Selamat Berjengok Yok!"

2009-04-06T00:01:00.004+08:00

Yaaaay!!! I've made up my mind, i want this Dell Inspiron Mini 9 in PINK! Haha!! It cost about $600-$700. Cool right? Oke² next month! I had promise myself for this. Its a must for me. So that it is easy and convenient for me. As for the Aspireone, is cancelled. Because the feedback i heard from some people, can't play internet, some say can and some say cannot, msn ... or whatever thing it is. So far about this one, NANA S, strongly recommended me to buy DELL.

JGN DI PERDAYA OLEH NANA S.[Dell User]

Hubby just got his new job. Will start work tomorrow! May god bless us! And people, i'm going back to my current job. Don't ask me why. I paitao the other job, and maybe....

... just maybe i wanted to try at HOOTERS!

Muaaahahahaahs!!

2009-04-05T01:07:00.010+08:00

This was a picture of Erwin when he was still small. Haha! Next month, he will be turning a year old soon! And i'm done with my new blogskin. A lil bit changes and yet still a bit the same. I cant stick with other colours, beside black and pink. I'm staying over at my Mom's crib now. I feel so much better as i get to see lil'Erwin. Haha! I wanna update about my workplace, my manager wants me to go back to SHIRAZ. I'm still thinking. Next week, i will be starting at Crazy Elephant. How? I'm clueless. But actually, i'm comfortable with my job at SHIRAZ. Least and for most, i know what the job is like already. And i'm used to it already. Well ........

Let me think about it then.

I'm just bored with my Hubby. It seems like these few days, we always quarrel over a silly matter. And ofcos, i'm the one who keep nagging all the time. I'm so tired to tell him the things that i don't like .. over and over again. I mean use his bloody common senses la. Correct a not? Precisely right! I'm so mean to him. Because i don't see theres a need for me to give him face anyway. DUMBASS! We cannot be too dependent on them, or else they will take us for granted. Don't think we girls, are weak okay boys!
BLAH LAH!

2009-04-04T20:57:00.000+08:00

BE RIGHT BACK.
BLOG UNDER CONSTRUCTION. (:

2009-04-02T13:50:00.006+08:00

I've got a lot of pictures, need to be upload soon. Its just that i don't have the cable with me. FUCK! I shared the USB cable with my mother in law. So right now, i don't know where the cable had gone missing to. Just a quick update. Erwin gonna reach a year old next month. I got a lot of things to prepare for him. Maybe i won't be throwing a party for him. I just want three of us to go somewhere to a special place. Next week i will starting my new job at Crazy Elephant. And i also got a job from PUMP ROOM, but for that one will start only next month, due to some reason. I wanna try out this new job first, part time je pe. But its rather fun la. This week, gonna be my last day working at SHIRAZ.

"GOODBYE SHIRAZ!
WELCOME ABROAD,CRAZY ELEPHANT!

I'm gonna buy a small and cute laptop from ASPIREONE from ACER. Which is more convenient for me to bring everywhere i go. It will be my personal laptop, and im not going to share it with anyone. I need to buy a new skin for my laptop, in nice² design. Still in pending now. Chey! Haha!

"Korang kan suker slalu tanam barang aje kan...."

2009-03-28T15:01:00.007+08:00

As i was playing the computer.
Lil' Erwin disturb his mummy, by making a cranky noise.
He just loves to press the button and hit it very hard.
I think i need to buy a Baby's laptop for him to play.
Any idea, people?
He is soundly asleep now.
And early in the morning, he went to Bedok's Polyclinic for his injection.
He cried for awhile and he is okay after that.
The doctor said, my baby is strong.
Because during the injection,
two people was holding him including myself,
hold his leg to standby for the injection.
He can still moving his leg and kick the doctor's hand.
OMG.
Stubborn baby.
But well-behaved after that.
And his current weight is 10.5 kg.
I realised that he don't want to drink milk that often ..
and always drink a plain warm water more.
Wahhhh .
Kecik² dah tau nk diet.
Awwww ...
I love him so much.
I'm not working today.
I need to spend my whole time with him.
Because next week,
i gotta get back to work.
Hee!

Chalo and blah!

2009-03-27T18:14:00.007+08:00

Is it worth to be patience?
Tell me about it then.
I have to juggle with my school,work and family.
I feel like giving up.
Urgggh!
It is true, when once you got married.
Everything would be changed.
Because before married,
you got freedom.
but as for now,
we have a commitment to be made.
I'm so emotional.
I can't think of anything else.
Am i be able to cope all this thing at one time?

I'm not a SUPERWOMAN.

Three things at a time,
it's like a bit tough for me.

♥♥

Sskkkippppppp......!
Let's go to another topic.

Last week, before school started.
I went to meet up with NANA S.
I gave her the MAC eyeshadow to her,
and she also pass me the makeover's vouchers as well.
She accompanied me to DAISO,
to buy a pen,highlighter and notebook.
But i missed one thing ..
LIQUID PAPER !!!
Chey! Semangat eh.
"Yup Nana, my friend cakap my pink notebook cute like the person also."
*Winks*
I think i'm the youngest among of all the people in my class.
They were all so mature ..
maybe their age range is between 25-45 years old.
Even the teacher made a joke,
to me was like nothing.
Not funny at all.
But the rest they were laughing over his jokes?
"Org² tua nye joke uh tu."
It was so blur for the first day of school.
We have to do a Report.
Just like a secretary's job.
Like we need to draft a letter for the boss ..
about the incident of blah blah ..
and after that let the boss sign it.
Their english was like so FLUENT.
Kata business in english.
I feel like stupid sia.
Luckily, i still remember what my teacher taught me on,
how to do a report in school.
It's a flash back time!
LOL.

♥♥

About my work?
Currently, everything is good.
As per normal, busy.
Iranian's new year.
Till this coming Sunday.
My son is here with me now.
Naughty but yet good boy.
I notice something about him,
he was like MindHisOwnBusiness,
while his mummy playing a computer.
Maybe he knows his mummy is very tired.
I got his recent photos with me.

Mmwaahhhhh!

2009-03-26T02:08:00.006+08:00

I will be back for more updates soon.
I've been very busy these lately due to school,work and family ..
My apology, people.
Goodbye! ♥

2009-03-26T01:33:00.004+08:00

First day of school was a blur to me. I'm here juggling with school, work and family. OMG! It is kinda a bit tough for me. I miss Lil' Erwin too, till i can get angry with Hubby. Okay back to my story about my school. Before i went to school, i met up with NANA S. She accompanied to me DAISO, which is a budget store selling anything that is cheap. I mean stuffs. LOL! I bought a notebook,pen and a highlighter. My class is so boring like duh. All are so mature people, while only me and another new friend of mine is younger than them. Like 20 plus. Haha. My teacher is Mr Nair, so the belit and talk also very fast. And the way he taught us keep jumping here and there. Till some of my classmate,da mcm lost seh. WTF sia. I'm thinking if this happen to continue all along for the 8 months, i decided to call it a QUIT!!!! Haha. Main² lar. Action only. We were given a task to do, which is letter writing. For example, i'm a secretary for my boss,and i have to make one report for them regarding about a complaints regarding about blah, blah and blah. Pegang pen pon da tak betol seh i. LOL.

Let's continue with other stories then. I met up Lil'Erwin and my sister at Library with Hubby and his friend accompanied me there. The reason i went there, i need to borrow some books, thats related with my studies. Haha. Mcm paham je eh me. So Erwin was there too. Perangai sey dia. Dia tgk mummy dia tgk buku,dia mengamok then my Hubby carry him outside the library,and entertained him. I miss Lil'Erwin. No one can understand how i feel. I have to struggle first for now, maybe one day i can be a taitai. Chey. Only god know what i have been gone thru now. A multi-tasking mummy. Haha.

Bbbbbbuuutttttttt.............

I feel like crying.
I don't know why..
I felt so stressful.
I really can't cope it.....

Goodnight then. (:

2009-03-21T15:51:00.005+08:00

I'm going to start schooling next week, which is this coming monday, at 1900hrs. But i have to be there in one hour earlier, to fill up the form for registration. I'm so glad that i will be back to hold a pen,book & a notebook again. I felt like a student back then. Haha! I'm so kinda of nervous right now, i just really hope that i'm gonna coping very well in my studies. Gonna meet Nana S. as well, to pass her eyeshadows which i have long wanted to give her, and also a makeover voucher from her. Next week, my scedule gonna be quite tight. Need to catch up with paula and yana for makeover anddd saturday i'm gonna be a makeover model for dayah, i guess she will be coming to my house! I'm so excited! .. Actually, i have a thought of having another baby .. Umm, well let's not think about that first. Of cos, i need to find a good job for myself, and until my family is stable one day then i can think about that. And i also want the best for my son. When he reach at the age of 3 years old, i'm gonna send him to ANDALUS. It is good for the children, so that they can learn IQRA and so on. I'm not really good in religious tho, but i do believes in Allah. Okay, let put all this to a full stop. I gotta take care of my son now, and tomorrow i gotta go for work back. Iranian's new year, its like a really busy day for me. Shall update about it later.

Goodbye!

2009-03-19T00:30:00.005+08:00

Do you believe in love at first sight, baby?
I guess you do, right ..
That's how i felt for you from the beginning of our love.
When the first time i met you,
i never even knew that we are gonna be this far together.
Thus, fate brings us together ..
We started being as a ..

F R I E N D S

We shared our problems and so on .
I mean i have never even thought that i'm gonna love you this much.
SO MUCH !!
If only you can feel how i feel for you.
I care so much for you eventho sometimes, i'm rude to you.
I didn't mean it baby.
I hate to see when people keep telling me that you will never gonna change ..
Because i believe that you can change.
At times, i feel like giving up this marriage.
But i can't baby ..
Because there's something in me is stopping me from going ahead.

My heart is my weakness, because in my heart there's you.
My mind is my anger, that keep telling me to leave you.

But overall, i always follow my heart.
Because of this heart, that make us together till this far.
I love you & i want you.
Forget the past, kiss the future.
Don't you ever hurt me anymore.
Are you gonna promise me that ?
No no ..
Better not.
Don't you promise me anything ..
Because if once you break it,
it will hurt me a lot ...

I love you till eternity. (:
A L W A Y S !

2009-03-18T23:18:00.012+08:00

ALOHA!!!
I would like to represent the three musketeers for the day. (:
Each of them has their own categories and descriptions.

♥ Erwin, the king of stone-headed and gembeng.
♥ Effa, the princess of the mentelness.
♥ Ikhwan, the cute little chubby baby and mr. curiousity.

They are the most lovelies honey bees from the block.
Cute and even miut. LOLX!

We reached the Northpoint quite late, as i have to fetch Erwin from my Mother's place. Like normal (:. So i catch up with yana and nana at there. I wasted on that bloody Taxi's cab at about nearly $50. Damn it with the gst, everything started to rise up now. Hubby accompanied me as well, because i can't carry everything with me. So he helped me out, with the pram and take care of erwin's mengada² skali. We sat at Long John Silver, while Nana and Yana were having their late lunch i guess. We didn't eat anything as we are full already. Hahs! It was so hot weather in the afternoon. I hate it when comes to Erwin's cranky. So stubborn, and naughty. He was so active, and keep pulling effa's hair. Nasib princess tu diam je. She knew that Erwin is still adek². Haha! We even camwhoring. Really had a great time with them. Go and take a lot at those pictures below:

After that we went left about nearly 7 pm. Nearly magrib, so we took cab back to my father's place, which was also at Yishun. We slacked there, until 8.15 pm, then we went back home. Send Lil'Erwin to my Mother's place, and then straight back home. One way cab. I miss Lil' Erwin so much. But when i'm with him, i felt so tired. But when i'm not him, i feel like want to cry, because i miss him so much. How i wish i can sit at home and take care of him. Nowadays, economy is really bad.

Mummy got to go for work baby.
I will promise you, once everything is stable ...
I will take care of you.
I miss you so much!

2009-03-12T13:26:00.016+08:00

ENJOYMENT'S TIME!
overwhelming ..

come,on honey! lets take another picture again.

Yesterday, i went to Club Nana with hubby and friends. LOLX! I was so not in the mood, because i'm the only girl in their group and i felt like left-out a bit. And the very best part, i was so pissed off when i found out, there got pole dancer. I was so angry with hubby. Can you imagine if i was not there at all, what would happen? I even kicked and punched hubby because of that. Well, its not fair for me luhs, why they never like employ a guys as a pole dancer as well, at least there is something i can wash my eye at them. *giggles* So come on here, let's take a look at the pictures which i have taken last night. (:

Da enough, haha! I also enjoyed myself there. The song there kinda lame a bit, but i like when the part they play trance song. LOLX! Nice cushion, and we also playing pool there. A lot of thailand hotchicks there. Even one of my friends took a picture with them. We took cab back home, which cost us $14.60 including the midnight charge. FUCKTARD! We reached home nearly 6 am in the morning. I was so shagged man. Haha! Nevermind la once in awhile. Hubby and me is doing just fine. I don't wish to say more about him. I'm afraid that he might hurt me again, like i said earlier. Haha! Erwin is also doing so much. Now he hav 6 tooth. Haha! And he is in process of teething right now. Haha! And i also think that i gaining a few kilos more. OMG! Because i eat a lot these few days. LOLX! Have not been working for these few days too. Nevermind needa work out back. Haha! GYM PLEASE!

also not forgetting ..
MY OUTING WITH,MY TWIN PAULA

She accompanied me to do my predicure at WAX CITY. Somewhere around Boat Quay. Hehe! We chatted a lot, but damn it i forgot to bring along her PINK DRESS. So forgetful of me. Haha! Well, Paula, meet me up again yaws! Muaaaahs!
....
And yesh about the HOPEscheme, is approved. Hubby hav already register for a driving license, and as for me i'm taking a Double Diploma In Business Admin And Private Secretarial. It all in processing right now. I'm so happy! YEAHHHH! Maybe i'm going to find other job which gotta with my Diploma cirt. Better yeah! ((:
Gotta go.

Chiao!

2009-03-02T18:28:00.003+08:00

For these past few days.
I felt so miserable.
I mean .. about him.
Someone who i loved so much.
but since last saturday,
everything went well.
He came back to me.
After for 5 days missing in action.
I managed to persuade him to come back.
He overnight at his friend's place.
That is what my instinct have been telling me about.
So i trust my instinct.
What i feel and what i think it was all true.
Now i believe what people always said.
Women's instinct is very strong. (:
He don't want to let me go.
He said he love me so much.
But if he does, why do he keep hurting me?
I have told him many times,
if he want an enjoyment,
i'm well prepared to let him go instead.
But he doesn't want it.
I'm still in dilemma.
But theres someone from the past came back.
Not my ex, but someone who likes me a lot.
He went chatted with me at the msn.
But the main thing is ..
I'm still in love with my hubby.
So the fact is nothing can change my love for him.
I hate that feelings actually.
My biggest fear is,
i'm afraid that he might go disappear again.
i don't want him to take me for granted anymore.

●●●

"What i did for the past few days."

The fight between my hubby and i was started over the phone, on last tuesday. But it wasn't serious actually. And also the day i didn't come for work due to Erwin was not feeling well. He doesnt want to drink his milk at all. Cried a lot for the whole day. I was so worried for him. Take care of him, and things started to get worst. He was send to the hospital. And hubby went missing in action for that day. I couldn't contact him. It was like over-stressful. Thinking about Erwin, hubby and also my work. I cried everyday and pray for Erwin to get well soon. ): But then the next day, Erwin was feeling okay. He can finish up one bottle in the morning. And he also drink warm water as well. He started to play and laugh. I felt so relieved. But still theres no news about hubby. I cried at work as well. But no one notice it, but only to someone who is close to me at work who knows my problems. I don't know when he wanna stop this shit. Always do the same thing all over again. I'm tired of getting hurt and upset all of the time. He came back to me after for all the days he has been missing. He told me that he was scared of me. He wanted to go out with his friends, and he is afraid that i might not let him go out. I mean, he can go out, but that day was the day Lil' Erwin was not feeling well. I was like "Are you kidding me? You still insist wanna go out, knowing that your baby was not feeling well?. It was all an fucking excuses. Everything we do we must have limits. But this fella over here, was like just don't get that he is already a father! How can like he leave his wife just like that? Until now i still keep it inside my heart. I know the truth is .. He wanted to enjoy with his friends. He started to mix with youngsters nowadays. And in his group of friends, he was the only who is married. Believe it or not?! I have to stay stronger. If one day, if it happen that i ever find out, that he is involve with a third party....

I SWEAR!
...i won't forgive him.

2009-02-25T08:44:00.004+08:00

I have already woke up early in the morning, to get ready to visit my rose. She is still in remand. So i can still visit her face to face. I kinda miss her. I won't give any further details about her case as it is too personal. (: I'm waiting for Baby(Sharon), to call me to fetch me. It was because actually yesterday i did message her, telling her to visit Lisa on thursday. Cos, i'm working today. But to no reply. I guess she fell asleep. But then just now in the morning i called her, to no availability. So i just wake up so early, just incase if she still insist on coming today, then i will just come. I came back home late yesterday at 1 am. Damn tiring man, and i didn't get enough sleep tho. ): This friday, i'm going to CDC at Paya lebar. Gonna be a busy month for me, at work too. Cos it is a new year for Iranian's people. Something like that. That is SUEY MARCH! I'm sure it gonna be pack like hell. Damn it right! I hate my manager,Steve for now. For some reason. Chibai tol. Haha!

[*My past photo was taken with her*]
And to my Rose.
Time will tell, and time will change.
I'm sure you can change way better than that.
Its all a matter of heart.
Whether you want to or not to. (:
I'll see you soon.

2009-02-23T15:19:00.015+08:00

A very good day to you.
Today is my off day. Resting days for the past 2 days as well. Do you people realised that i have been keep updating my blog nowadays? Good news right? Haha! Beside that, i have been spending all my time with my family, siblings and also met up with my real dad with his my step mom and sister. We had our late lunch at Sakura's Restaurant which is at Northpoint. I went through all the way there because it is nearby my Daddy's place. So yah. (: We have taken a lot of pictures and we also have a lot of things to catch up too. Hehe! Now, my Lil' Erwin has 3 grandfathers and 3 grandmothers. Haha! Very fortunate uhs. I can see that they really like Erwin, i mean i was refering to my stepmother and stepsister. But you know Erwin, he doesn't know them. Not even close to them. They even bought for Erwin a soft toys. But Erwin pushed it away.

He doesnt't want it. So naughty Lil' Erwin. And i kept saying to them, "No worries, Erwin is always like that one, sometimes show attitude. LOL!". I lied to them to make them feel better. Then Erwin was like looking at me and show a expression like.. "Ape je, Mummy." And you can even see some of his pictures showing :an attitude face, make a boring face as well and a not interested face too. Hmmmpf! I have no comments already. (:

I'm really happy to see my Daddy you know. Actually, i used to hate my Stepmother, because i ever used to stay with her before. She bullied me. But my Daddy was the one who was always there for me. I think that was like 5 years ago. I only stayed with them for 3 months. Because at that time i was so called "stone-headed". Well it was just the past. No use talking about it again. As i grow up, under my Mother's care, she taught me a lot, and always kept saying that, no matter how bad is the person to you, you can't hate them so much. You must always learn to forgive and forget. My mother is a soft-hearted person. I always take things for granted. And see how many times i ever hurt her in the past, still she is always there for me till now. I thanked god for having a mother like her. I'm blessed too.

Anyway, good news as well. My (HOPE)Scheme hav been approved. I'm so happy. NYEHAHAHAHA! It is good for young marriage people. For like a family planning. And the not really good thing is i can only have two kids, can be less but not more. If after two kids, if i want to sterilised just tie and cut or maybe just tie it, at the part where the sperm meet the egg part? Haha! Takpela, paham aje la. Haha! I can get $9k in cash money. Hmms. clever ah goverment. Arsehole. Okay, i never think about that part, i only look upon the part, they will give us $5k each of me and my hubby to upgrade ourselves. 100% guranted sponsorship by CDC. And they will put in 15k or 50k, i'm not really sure how much it is .. in my cpf. The main important thing is that i must not get DIVORCE. If not i have to pay everything back. They will also help us in financially, and sponsor for Lil'Erwin's future too. Like they will sponsor for his school from K1, till he graduated university. INSYALLAH!. I think this is the good scheme for me. Haha!

"I think this is a new chapter for me to begin a new life, and it is a new year resolution for me, to take each step at a time to begin a new path. I'm blessed. And it is worth to be patience all this while, and in return of doing all that, i have my wish come true .. things started to change slowly. And i just hope that things will stay this way .. and i really hope nothing come between it."

2009-02-21T05:19:00.013+08:00

RANDOMIZED

Hello to every each of you. Haha! I'm so damn tired. My feet is killing me. Oh my gosh, standing for 5-8 hrs. But i'm getting a bit season and used to it already. Haha! Well, i wanted to share with you about my day, i mean TODAY! It was great just now, eventhough it was busy just now. Do you remember, that i ever mentioned a current hostess named ICY? Well she is back now. So i've to like so called share half of my scedule with her. I don't mind sharing with her anyway. But i'm still wondering, why most of my colleagues don't really like her. My assistant manager, Janet want me to take over ICY. And most of them(colleagues) want ICY, to be a waitress instead of hostess. I really don't know why, but i also don't want to know the reason too. I'm equal and fair. Whatever i heard from people, i prefer to keep it to myself and shut up. It is better be safe then sorry. (: I'm very nice to everyone, as long as they don't step over my head and mean. So here is the pictures of MUHAMAD's Sister birthday celebration at my workplace. Hehe!

It was really an enjoyable day for them. They eat the cakes,drink and even smoke shisha. (: And music were also played as well with the birthday song. Haha! My boss wished them a "Happy Birthday" too. A lot of FUNFUNFUN! It was really busy, until i have to multi-tasking, by helping out to take order from customers. Actually, by right i can't take order actually. But i just can't see the customers waiting. But ICY was just standing there. I guess she is too ladylike, till she cannot even like help out a service job a bit. And some of the waitress and customers also complaining about her too. I can only say to myself, "NO COMMENTS" Haha. And one of the iranian's guest, asked me .. "You must be really tired right?". What else can i do? I have a current hostess here, who can't do anything. Even a phone calls, or attending an unhappy customers also, she push it all to me. I mean like she hav been working there for almost a year i guess, but even like a simple thing she can't even do it. I don't know what is she scared of. Damn it right!

Let's SKIPSKIPSKIP!
Let me introduce you to my two beloved colleagues cum waitress. (: The slim one, is SANDY and as for the cute chubby one is, JOYCE. They were very nice, sweet and friendly. Haha! Sorry no edits, because i'm very tired. Haha!

And this was taken when i was about went off from work, so i just took a few snaps, while waiting for my bouncer to send me back home by cab. Haha!

SO,SO,SO .....
after that, i was safely on my way home.

Goodnight!

2009-02-18T22:20:00.002+08:00

Hello! I'm kinda tired for these few days. I have a migrane too. I'm glad that i'm not PREGNANT. Thanks god. Don't get me wrong people, i want a baby, but not now. I'm just not ready. (: This is the picture that was taken by B'nora my darling, last month i guess. Haha!

Sorry my face was kinda slacked at that time. And at the same time i was not in the mood. But luckily, i bumped into Nora at that time. Hehe. I'm so not in the mood. Why? I'm so moody these few days. Hubby got for me a camera, in pink color. Haha! I'm lazy to upload the picture.

I have a confession :
....

Sometimes i hate you.
But at the same time i love you.
I know that you never gonna change,
but still i stick with you.
And ..
I always keep pondering about it,
but theres not clue either.
I always keep asking myself ..
WHY? WHY? WHY?
I'm tired to talk to you either.
Everytime when u make me angry,
i feel like leaving you.
But you know my weakness.
And you know the techniques of how to win my heart back.
I hate you this part.
After we are fine,
i'm always scared to be SO happy with you.
I'm afraid that you might hurt me again.
Now,
it is very hard for me to smile very wide.
Why?
You know what the answer is darling..

"Cherish me while i'm still around .. because you will never know that one day i will be gone. There is always a limitation in everything. I love you.

2009-02-14T09:47:00.006+08:00

Phew!
I can't sleep now.
I felt so restless.
I feel like vomitting again and again.
I just really hope that i come mensus, FAST!
Late for 2 weeks already.
I just hope maybe it is due of stress.

Well, work is fine. (: Guess what, i will be working here permanent part time. Nyehaha! You know that current hostess, she hav to do service. Haha! And she can only become hostess, and maybe get the scedule for the day, when i'm not working. That fat ass, okay lets call her name ok, since she is nice to me now, JANET. She explained things to me, and all. And we're okay in terms. Haha! Yesterday, got stalker. A customer. But my friend tell him off. So the customer apologized to me. I felt so much better and relief.

I'm just not ready to have another baby.
I am so scared.
Because i know that i'm very fertile.
I dreamt about babies.
Two babies.
I don't really have any idea what was that suppose to be mean.
I'm so clueless.

Yesterday, i even took a cab to work. Which was actually i can take a train.
I miss Erwin so much. Really. Tonight, after i end work i'm gonna cab down to my Mom's place and sleepover.

&&&
A Happy Valentines Day To You All. (:

2009-02-11T19:17:00.005+08:00

Today, i didn't turn up for work again. It has been two days already. I guess maybe i was so worried with Lil' Erwin. I have already make up and all. But no semangat. So i went to my Mom's place. I'm so happy to see Lil' Erwin. He is doing just fine, and his fever also getting decreased. Thank god. I hate my ladyboss at SHIRAZ. That fat ass idiot, she is not even a owner of the restaurant. But she has this kinda attitude problem. But the rest of my colleague and manager, are overall okay and fun. Except for this fatso, she is just an assistant manager. I'm so kinda pissed off with her. Actually, i'm working as hostess, i also cover up for that current hostess too. As for now, that current hostess named ICY, went for CNY for 3 weeks. Means on leave. So i've already cover for her nearly 3 weeks. But i heard rumours that ICY won't be coming back also. And some of my colleagues said that she is the "BITCH". She can smile to us, but then she can also kill us from the back. I don't know why. I think almost whole of the people at the restaurant dislike her. I'm still clueless. I love to be in this line, but eversince that fatso make me pissed off, like that time i asked her ..

Me:
"Hey, Janet! Well Icy coming back right next week?(Supposed to be this week).

Fatso:
"Ya,why?" (Make one matherfucker face)

Me:
"Oh well, i was just asking. So i will still be the hostess or....?"

Fatso:
"If icy back, you do service laaaahhhhhhh!" (raise her voice at me)

Me:
"Ok."

It was because i'm still new i don't dare to fight back. Wait till i confirm that i won't be working there anymore, then i will confirm show her my attitude back. Eventhough i really love the job, but what can i do if the current hostess is back right? Nevermind, i will still keep in touch with my colleagues and all. (:

See the pictures above. How fun and exciting right? I feel so sad taw. Sighs! Nevermind, what is done cannot be undone. Well, my friend decided to recommend me work as recruitment marketing at orchard. And the pay is okay. She want me to let her know once, i've already decided to leave my current job. *SOBBING* Nowadays, economy not good. And i hate to stay in Singapore actually. Haha! I want to migrate somewhere in a FANTASY LAND. Any such countries? If have let me know okays. Haha! I gotta go, take care of my Lil' Erwin then.

Sayonara Everyone. =D

2009-02-10T22:29:00.015+08:00

"Get Well-Soon My Lil' Erwin"

I miss my son so much. Just send him to my parent's house. It is because i will be working tomorrow evening. My son fell down yesterday, from my sister in law's arm. His face landed first, on the floor. It was like so terok. I kept crying just now, i don't know why, for no reason? Or maybe i was just worried of losing my son. He have a fever now, went to doctor just now. His temperature is 37'c. His having a fever, and pleghm. But i'm just so scared that anything might happen to him, maybe inner damage? the head part? I don't want to blame everything at my sister in law, i mean she wasnt doing it on purposely. Her mistake was she just carry Erwin with her another arm, while her another hand she was looking at her phone. I can see that she felt sorry too yesterday.

Accident can happen anywhere.

But yesterday night he was doing alright, that was after the incident. Happy², with his yummylicious chicken porridge. How happy he was. But today, he was like so moody. I'm so worried. Really. Till i cried. I don't want to lose him. I felt so heartbroken. I don't feel like going to work tomorrow but i have to. My mom told me not to think so much, i know that he'll be safe with my parents. (:

"Please,Please God Just Hope Nothing Happen To Him!"

2009-02-08T16:31:00.006+08:00

"WELCOME TO MY DEAREST DIARY"

Phew! I'm so damn tired. I've been working for the past few days man. I miss blogging and i miss my son too. Now he is with me. So the MENGADA², i cannot tahan you know. *Tiredness overwhelming* I've two things in my mind right now.

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The first one:
I'm thinking about what to plan on Hubby's birthday which is coming this 3rd March. My friend had already order this bottle of liquor from my workplace. He told me to plan everything since it is my Hubby's birthday. But my pay will be on the 5th of March. Wait a minute! Yeahhhh, we all will be getting GST money right? *winks* Since he like seafood, i guess maybe we'll go somewhere where we can have a very yummy delicious seafood. Any idea people? (:

The second one:
I've already booked a table for 9 people at Sakura's Restaurant at Yishun, gathering with my father and my siblings. I know its far well what to do, my real dad lived in Yishun. Its been like so long already. I love my real dad, and so my step dad too. (: I miss my real dad. Hehe!
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I love my current job. Really. I'm into it. (: At clake quay somemore. A lot of foreigners, flirty ones, and funny people too. In this environment, we really have a lof fun here, especially with colleagues. All kaki gereks. And i only like two belly dancer there, the chinese and arab ladies. And yet they are really friendly, each time they dance, guess what, customer will take out a lot of $50 notes, i think about 5-10 pieces and will throw at them while they were dancing. Cool huh?! Haha! Must be frigging rich uhs. This is NOT-the-ANYHOW belly dancers you know. They got class one, as for the chinese lady, she used to 5th runner up in Miss Singapore 90's. I forgot her name. Haha! Maybe you can check it out at my workplace webbie. @ www.shirazfnb.com.

"I hate my hubby seriously.
Always keep giving me empty promises.
And i hate liars!"

2009-02-01T20:10:00.003+08:00

Good Day Everyone!

Hello! Its been like quite long that i've not update my blog yet. So sorry fellows. I've been very busy working luhs sayang! Haha! The reason i upload this picture of me and my son, it is because i really miss him so much. I've to work in a week, least 4-5 days. The working hours is 6-11pm and sometimes end at 1-2 am. It depends. And my workplace is at SHIRAZ, clarke quay. I'm working as part-time hostess. Like a door host, but don't you think opposite way alright. It is a persian restaurant, an middle east food. Like arab and turkish. I love this job, so much because i like FUN environment. I'm more to this line rather then office job. (: I also can watch the belly dancer as well, while working too and can smoke sheesha too. BUT I DON'T SMOKE LUHS! LOLX! I will not be always at my computer. So sorry for the late update. I miss paula too.

And today is not my day, i so called have this a bit crisis with my friend about her sister who just work at my place for just one freaking a day! And yet wanted to complain a lot of thing, and now demand pay? She's the one who PAITAO, now expect my boss to pay her one day salary. FUCKTARD and THICKED SKIN. Arsehole! I tell you a bestie can never really last only to some. Seriously. I rather be alone and just focus on my family. She's trying to say that the way the people there treat her beloving sister like NO STANDARD at all. Come on standard procedure, everyone who just join sure to kena bully first right? After that slowly you can get along with people there. Then she said because i am pretty thats why they treat me good. WTF! Its not about looks, it is about how you work on and your bloody attitude. Tryna said that my job NO-STANDARD? Please la rather than your job as what? Stewarding? Behind the scence? Please my job scope is to assist the guest and i can ever wear pretty clothes ok, and hers? At the back carry all DIRTY plates, and oily all over her face, and even make your clothes dirty and smell shit. Look's who talking okays. You, yourself don't even have standard at all, and even below position than waitress job. FUCKTARD. She made me say this. Go get a life la fucker bestie. Haha! Eh please you also want my position okays, remember la no standard also you ask me to recommend you ok. Luckily i didn't recommend you. Both sisters kaki paitao. Aaaawwwww .........

2009-01-14T22:30:00.003+08:00

"I LOVE MY NEW ADIDAS SANDAL"

NICE RIGHT!

I just bought it today, alrights².. Actually i didnt intend to buy a sandal because the money i have, it is for rebonding. But i'm so fickled minded. I don't know whether to do my hair or not. So just now in the evening, i went to accompany my brother Hafiz, to buy a slipper also from ADIDAS's shop at Tampines Mall. So as i was looking around, something caught my eye on, which is that slipper somemore in DEEPPINK. You tell me how can i resist it? It cost $45 each. Hurry up! If you like it than go and buy from there. Haha!! So Tantarraaaa, i bought one then. But i've already called hubby, that i still want the rebonding, so still i have ongoing mission to do later then. Haha!

♥ GoodNight!

2009-01-09T21:49:00.009+08:00

WELCOME!

Today, my day was like so boring. I have nothing to do at home, so i decided to borrow some novel from Bedok Library, which is nearby my house here. Guess what, i borrowed 4 books, all were "ROMANTICS" story. (: Of cos, i'm very romantic what. Just joking people. Beside that, i did a "SELF-MAKEOVER" at home, right in my VERY room only for my face and no backdrop uhs. I did put on make-up and fake lashes, and put a bit glitterish around the lashes to make it like "BLINKING", *giggles*

I love RHINESTONES,DIAMOND & GLITTER
Yesh, very much!

And Lisa gave me a "GlitterEyeliner" from Skinfood? I'm not sure where she bought it but the pronouncation was something like that. It does look pretty well on me. Suits me then. I took some pictures, I really love camera, but i'm not sure whether camera love me or not. Haha! Sometimes it look pretty ugly and sometimes look just nice. Haha! Tomorrow i'm gonna fetch Lil' Erwin from my mom's place. I MISS TO BITS! I have something to share with you, i don't know why these days i feel myself so ugly and so not like me last time. Last time, i used to be a very confidence lady. I can do everything and always try new things out. But now, i feel like i'm lost somewhere and there is something missing in my life. What is it? I'm not sure. Still .. Sighs! I've this low self-esteem. OMG!

Slowly, i will catch up things up step by step. I'm waiting for Erwin to reach at the age of One year old then i upgrade myself, my skills and knowledge. For now, i just want to spend time with him and shower him with so much care and love. (: I cannot have a thought of having a second one. Not yet. Haha! Happy looking at my pictures and please no copyrights. And i'm now learning how to use Photoshop CS2, because i'm only used to it with Photoshop Elements only. See all my design are so simple. ): Sad uhs!

Till now and GOODBYE!

2009-01-08T13:13:00.006+08:00

ERWIN DANISH

See? Cute right. So chubby and adorable. I sayangg him so much. Speechless again. *sighs* Right now he is at my mom's place. As usual, his grandmother and grandfather wanted to spend time with their grandson. First grandson and the only one. (: And erwin is gonna be One year old this May. 3-4 months time. I know, very early to plan. But i want to make his birthday party is the best and happiest day in his life. I've lots of things in my mind now. I can't tell you anything yet.

SECRETS!

This picture shown that he was about to bath. LOL! He really love to bath. With his rubber duck as well. It a must la. I'm MRS ITIK. So my everything my son do got to do with duckling name. lolx! Haha! I really miss him a lot. Seriously i am.

Baby,Cepat Luhs Balik.
Mummy Miss You So Much!

2009-01-05T16:30:00.004+08:00

I WANT A JUICY COUTURE BAG !!

I'm in love with this bag. Its lovely dovey. I decided to change my taste then. Beside GUESS,LV,GUCCI Or Etc, i want to change my bag to JUICY COUTURE. I'm ordering it from overseas. It cost $220. Is it worth it? (: See if i've the money i will forget to buy anything important beside that. OMG! But as for Erwin's expenses i've already put it aside. I hope that everything in family would turn out to be good and as we planned.

May god bless us.

2009-01-03T16:37:00.007+08:00

HOME SWEET HOME.

Guess where am i?
I'm now at my mom's place. I just wanna fetch Erwin. So i quickly upload some of my recent pictures as well. Hubby accompanying me now. He was watching tv while i update my blog here. I'm extremely busy luhs darlings. And yesterday i've just spoken to Eulise, who is my hubby ex. We talked things out, then settled. Then we also share things like about our baby,life and etc. Haha! Yah, i just couldnt believe that we both have became a mom and wife. I can hear her baby cried and she fed her baby. How time flies we both are married. Used to befriends before. But what is past is past. True? But that GIGI, ops sorry paula. When i spoke to her over the phone i accidentally called her "EH GIGI". OMG! LOLX! Not purposely you know. I was pissed with that JJB because i was asking her about this "THING" since she so kepo open up her mouth about my probs to Paula. But then she changed the topic to her story. I mean "COME ON,YOU'VE ALREADY SETTLED WITH PAULA,WHY BOTHER TO ASK ME ANYTHING ABOUT IT?" lolx. Its irritates me a lot. But she did talked to me a nice way. But I know i'm a bit harshed to her. Tapi dia memang minta kena maki lak. Hehe. She like to talked so much luhs. BLAHBLAH.

"I don't want to hear advise from you anyway. I don't need it, thank you for wasting your breath here,JJB."

2009-01-02T22:04:00.010+08:00

Hello friends! Its been so long that i didn't update my blog. Its not that i'm MIA or what. I was just busy with my family. Especially after staying with in law. So far so good here. Everything is getting better. Which is good for me too. My new resolution is to settle all my problems is left hanging. But so far i've settled one for now. The reason i privatised my blog is because i don't want others or strangers to read my blog. Well its a personal blog then. Only to those who are invited can read my blog. Nothing special just about my life. So on .. Here goes my countdown. I celebrated with my in laws at HANRIVER at Eastpoint. I think i started to love my in laws a bit by a bit. I just realised that they are older than us we should respect them more. Thats why they are feelings tend to be very sensitive. But overall everything is doing just great. So i wish to share with you .. something. Scroll down. (:
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And then when we reached home. Then erwin started to sat on his walker and hopping. He really loves it so much. I guess he follow my characters most. I'm very pampered and bossy. But sometimes luhs. (:

Happy already. Atlast i posted it you know. (:
COMMENT BANYAK²!!!!!
Thank You!

2008-12-15T00:35:00.002+08:00

Sorry for the very long time i've been MIA from this blog.
I've been very busy already.
Because i'm now a permanent resident at my in law house.
So i've to be independent already. (:
Well thats the good thing anyway.
Because i always been pampered at my mom's place.
Its hubby decision anyway.
Will come up with new post soon and pictures as well.

MUACCCCHIIIEEES!!

2008-12-03T02:26:00.006+08:00

I HAVE LOTS TO SHARE WITH YOU PEOPLES!
LONG ENTRIES COMING UP!

I really miss blogging. I guess for two weeks, i've been MIA? Or maybe more than that? I've been busy with my work, my life and at the same time take a lot of time to change my blogskin. So here it goes, new one and latest. But yet still in PINK,BLACK&WHITE. Still with my favorites colors. (: I will tell you abit of everything that i've been busy with these days.

WORK
● I'm working at POOL FUSION at CityHall. Which is meant for people to play pool only. As a part time counter girl. Suprisingly, i work in this line right? Because i want to meet people, i like fun environment. Well, the place is good but boring because i'm the only one girl at the counter. DAMN BORED! And now, i just so called quit job because, of that FUCKTARD boss of mine, forcing me to work for weekends. Which was actually i didn't request for any weekends to work on, but only for WEEKDAYS!, and the best part i've told my supervisor about it during the interview, they agreed to it. But then end up i've to work! So i just work for a few days on WEEKENDS! I sacrifices my weekend for work, which i was supposed to spend time with my family. Nevermind, it's okay. Because i never turn up on that bloody weekend which i also don't know that i was suppose to work either. And indirectly they are like terminate me nothing. I mean they all are being selfish including my friend. They only think of themselves. Now they don't want to pay my salary and yet expect me to return the key shop to them back. I did asked for my salary, i don't know why is like very hard for them to give me salary, its not that i'm the one who don't want to turn up, i also don't know that i was supposed to work on that day. They threaten to take a legal action towards me, if i didn't return the key to them. So i told them off, "YOU THINK I'M STUPID? IF YOU THINK YOU HAVE THE RIGHT TO TAKE ACTION FOR THAT, SO WHY NOT ME? I WILL MAKE A POLICE REPORT BECAUSE YOU'RE NOT PAYING ME AND YOUR COMPANY GET A BAD NAMES!" Will tell you more about it after tomorrow. (:

LIFE
● Lil' Erwin is so cute. Because he is now trying to turn his back and crawl. But he loves to stare at people, but when comes to people stares at him, he will turn his back at them. He don't like people staring at him. He like to laughing away. And hugs his BABYPOOH & CHIPMUNK. And sometimes, i caught him talking to them. Like "ABREAAHHH AHHHHHH ERRRR BREEAHHH", mumbling himself. I just realised that he like to bath. I mean when come to bath, i will take off his socks, then he will like hop, smile and laughing away. MACAM TAU JEK NAK MANDI. He loves MUSIC. Like part of his life already. But depends on which song. Biaser la, still with his WHEN I GROW UP. That time, i tried let him listen to TWINKLE TWINKLE LITTLE STAR, but then he like stomped his leg and cried. Then i quickly change to PUSSYCAT DOLLS's song. Then he stop for awhile and look at the computer screen, and laughing away on his walker. LOLX! And beside that, hubby and i have a bit of miscommunication. That make us lead to arguments. SAME OLD SHIT DIFFERENT DAY. But now, we're okay back. The forth day of his ABSENCE, atlast he called me, and started to be emotional with me. Keep saying that he loves me and miss me so much. I think is the very first time he did this to me. Compare to the other time of his runaway mission. HAHAS! We talked nearly 2 hours. We did talked things out, and settled in a good way. I just really hope it won't happen again. Like people, always said we can't change that person overnight, and its take one step at a time to change them. I'm very PATIENCE with him right now. I just hope that everything goes smoothly as what i expected it to be lastly. I will keep praying for our family.

BLOGSKIN/BLOGGER
● AHHH NANA!! I'm done with my blogskin. THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR GIVING ME SO MUCH IDEA! ((: APPRECIATE IT A LOTS! I will only invite VIPs to my blog only. I don't like strangers and kepos to read my blog and know about my life. Please ey!

Will update very often. Hees!
MUAAAWWAHHHHS!!!

2008-11-20T17:33:00.006+08:00

I will be away! Haha!
Maybe 4 days, take care everyone!

AKUUU SERRAMMM NGGGNNN ORGGG PYSCHOOO!

Eh hal jab pantat? Ape kau kena jab pat pantat per? Tak kan?! Eh sial ah kalau betol kau takde pape, ngn aku takan cepat nah aku offline, trus g bace blog aku pundek! Eh kau per trick aku da main ok! Nak ckp suruh aku siasat dulu konon! Buto lar ok! KAU YG BOOODDDOOOHHHH! Please go and get a life la ek! Kau nk ckp aku terasa abey yg kau terasa apasal sial! Please la! Tak ABIS² ngn kau per terasa la sial!

Aku nk private ah blog aku, ade makcik kepo tgk² ah pat sini!

Will be back my ladies! (:

2008-11-20T16:38:00.002+08:00

I think there's someone who is very sick. I was refering to other people, but suddenly i started to realised that she thought it was her. Until my friend told me why was my PERSONAL MSG at MSN like talking about each other, when i change PM, she also change PM. Then i went to take a look, OH YAH HUH .. !! Then i like cannot believe it again, so i try to change again, skali .. YESH SHE DID CHANGE IT TOO! I thought we are like okay, no hal or nothing. I guess maybe to her its a no. LOL! Nevermind, say whatever you want lah. You are another BITCH who is SICK IN THE BRAIN TOO! If she not happy let her come to me. Lain orang yang aku bobal, lain yg jawab la. I may have sickness before, but unless not permanently sick in the brain just like you. Please you're not perfect alright? Want me to say about your history as well? And where do you get it from? And jab in the butt your ****? You know lar kan who. ((: EEUUUWWW! Please eh nak kepo silakan but dont be xtra, you're from last time pyscho! ISH!

2008-11-19T13:11:00.002+08:00

I LOVE YOU !!

I'm gonna take a break for awhile, will not update blog that often. I'm still not feeling well. I know there's people out there, who still kepoing in my blog here. Listen up, the more you people jealous about the more i suker tau. If there's nothing to be jealous, surely you won't talk about that person right? LOL! True enough? Yaaawwwwnnn!! Ingat before talking about other people, do please take a look around you, whether you can trust that person or not? Maybe it might be my friend who is talking to you. The more you talk about people, the more people will think bad of you. (:

Well, Lil' Erwin is getting bigger and tembam each day. Sayang him so much! Without him, i don't how would my life be or end up to; Will catch up with Lisa, maybe this week or don't know when. Not forgetting Felicia, to get my the LV Wallet from her. Tak sabar ni. =D K luhs, i want to get to rest lar now.

MUWWAKKSSSS!!!

2008-11-18T19:39:00.006+08:00

See my son. So cute, hugging his POOH. LOL! I love him so much. I'm feeling so much better. Again with normal hate tagging here and there about my MAC's make up. Go ahead and tag. If they want to report me go ahead. I can only point at my supplier. Haha! I don't mind okays. If you so semangat, want to come down and report i'll make sure you come down at the police station yourself. Rather than hiding behind the computer alrights. And don't forget to sue the pasar malam as well, they also selling MAC too, i guess there were fakes. Want to be kepo might as well, report everything imitation in this world true? LOL! But what i know i've done my research so thats it. LOL! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!

Btw i've change my blogshop link. Haha! (: Sebok lar org ni semua, tak leh tgk org maju. And i've a few stocks need to be collect from the supplier. Haha! 5 more stocks, before i'm starting my new job at .. SECRETS! lol! After i will be super the busy, business still on but will hanging for awhile. SOON then i will start my new job. lol! Aaawwww .. lisaROSE is so shuwit ah nari. LOL! Talking to her, can make me laugh out loud! LOL!

"ADE HOT NEWS!!"

To That Someone;
Eyy.. aku dgr kau suker kutuk² org ek? Pala buto lar ok. Sape kau per clan nak campor? Nak step backing ehhh? Mulot da la bau busuk, bau minyak cap babi! Mulot banyak lancaowei org. Ehhh kau pikir kau PUUURRRRFECCCT sangat?! Eh please la, pikir kau da insaf rupenye .. belom lagi eh? Pasal hal rolling kan? Kawan kau nk step backing? Pala buto! Nak terasa asal? Are u the one? OPPPSSS! Haha! Nak panggil laki kau ker nak panggil the whole family ker? Aku tak heran! Takde tetek nak bobal kan? Duduk² one corner suker gossip² macam biatch sundal! Nak step geli ngn kawan aku konon, please look at yourself can? Umm not your face, but your BELOWWWWW .. Do you think you are PERFECT!? Lain kali takde story jangan buat story, berani buat berani tanggung! Ini berani buat, org lain sapukan. EEUUWWW! Ini post kalau kau nak terasa, come and talk to me direct! Clan² kau sape nk campor sila kan! Kalau kau tak nak besar kan cerita kau tutup kau per mulot okays! If not i'm gonna tell the whole world about YOU. (: Be a good person. Don't disturb others, while others don't disturb you.

BANYAK CHING CHONG MULOT BAUUUUU!

2008-11-18T00:18:00.005+08:00

TODAY! The most kelakar day for me. Seriously, with NANA SONTOLOYO. Talking about a mole out in the blue. How people manage to live with their mole like that? PCK?! OHMYGAWD! Btw, paula you're hot okays. That's why a lot of hate taggers keep coming in your blog. But you still THE BEST for MATIN.

My Say;
"I still don't get it, why this girl, someone in the past still kepoing to know about my hubby's life? Why? She was just a girl in the past, and she even add him in friendster, hubby keep rejected her request, but still keep adding .. Then lastly.."

KAAANNNNNN ..

Da kena maki dari akuuuuu! Tak tahu malu eh pompan! Da lah bekas semua org, even kau pergi tunnel pon nk kena blow for people inside in order to masok. EEUWWWW! Please keep a longggg ... distance from my family. Still gotta cheeks to fight for her so called rights? Please lar you have no right and no say for this. LOL! Tryna cut your hair short in order people wont identify you? I still know you! Step kai extent rambot. BUUUTOOO LARRR OK!

LASTTTTLYYYY ..
Please don't keep telling people around that my hubby is;
YOUR FUCKING EX AGAIN!

Kayyy hubby i sayang you. LOL! People susah la nampak org happy² lar syg. (:

2008-11-17T08:15:00.002+08:00

FIRST OF ALL I JUST WANT TO SAY ;
DON'T BITE YOUR OWN TONGUE IF YOU THINK YOU'RE NOT LIKE THAT & IF YOU DIDN'T DO WHAT I DON'T LIKE .. UNLESS YOU ARE!

Do you get it?

Don't come and tell me what to do and whats not alright? Its not your fucking business. I've nothing against you, so don't bother bite your own tongue, unless you do. Like i said earlier. I'm sure you're my avid reader too yea. lol. If want to kepo here, can who say cannot? Just come and read then blah.. don't talk much. lol. And you said i ever call you names before, as in POMPAN ROLLING? Since when? Please don't start with another lie to another. And one more thing, i don't get why you so terasa with my previous post. Are you doing the same thing like i said in my post earlier? If you do, please eh! Stop it. Don't be mcm so the proud to be eh pat sini. What you're doing right now, by so the terasa and make you sis in law ask me question here and there, do make me think that you are the same too. If i got probs with you, i won't be wasting my time here instead. Surely confront you straight away. And to those extras, if want to step backing your friend kan? Jangan nak step paham okays? Memalukan diri sendiri jek. LOL! So i've already said my piece so that's it.

"Org slalu ckp, sebelom nk proceed, better figure out dulu.
KENTAL! Takde masa la nak kacau family kau! HAHAHAHA!"

Well, been going out with Felicia, for these few days. lol. We have a lot of things in commons. She bought for me an LV MULTICOLOUR wallet. Haha! I'm still not feeling well. STIILLLL! Maybe today or tomorrow i'll be meeting Felicia again. We have a lots to talk about. Haha! I want to sleep lar. LOL!